Sunday, January 13, 2008

Back?? or am i just fooling myself...



Wow..its been long. 6 months?hmm...hard time though. Wonder why i'm back at writing this stuff anyway. Is it all that bad? Well part of it has been very good actually. I'm in love. Yea really. Might seem like a joke, but its true. Some of yall motherfuckin skeptics might ask "Well if i'm REALLY in love, then what does it feel like?". Well for ya'll bastards. I've only got one answer. It feels like nothing you guys would ever feel. Don't start getting definitions on it all. If its there, its there. don't ask me motherfucking questions as if i divided the sea with my bare hands.



Well that's only the good part. Been feeling a little fucked. Don't really know the reason. Well maybe i do. But if i do, i can't find it. That sucks doesn't it. I mean you know its there, right in front of your eyes. But you can't find it and you can't even do anything about that. But you see the worst part of it actually begins when you actually find out the reason. Aha...know that's where the real problem starts. Why? Simple. What are you gonna do next? Forget about it? Perhaps try to solve it. Either way you would realize that a great sacrifice exists somwhere. and it just ain't good. Not easy either. But hey!! You win some you lose some right?? Hahaha....My fucking ass bitch. Soon you would realize that winning would only be a short term gain. In the end its better to lose. Coz you see, at least you wouldn't feel the faint happiness that you know you would only enjoy its company for awhile. Ha.

Anyway..it doesn't really matter. In the end no matter how faint of an idea you have about the situation, you somehow would know how its gonna turn out. So no point really in actually trying to figure something you know will never be there. Just stop hiding from the truth. It stupid..

Ya'll may know what i'm talking about. But some of ya'll may think i'm ranting as usual. Yea right...whatever...wadda way to start reposting eh..cool...