Sunday, October 15, 2006
Shishh...Another sian day for another sian life.....It just dosen't seem to end. Well i wish it does, very very soon. Nothing really happy to blog about. I find that i'm not really the happy person i used to be. So much of problems.... Dosen't really add up to happy thoughts....Well at least i feel so much better when i'm together with my friends..They have this kind of effect that makes you not want to care about anything but having fun. At this moment of time, I cherish this type of feeling so....
On the contrary, there's always this little weight in my chest, pulling me down further and further away as the days go by. I feel that it is only getting worst. The boulder on my shoulder is getting heavier and harder to hold. I feel like my neck is breaking. I wonder if i should just give up, or should i just try to live up to the expections of the world. Not easy....People think they have so much of problems, and i believe them. But they think the outspoken ones are so problem-free.... In actual fact, they are dying a slow painful death inside. One muscle tearing away from another so slowly, the pain is eternal. With noone to turn to, talk to or even look at.
What can they do.... Nothing. They can't do nothing. What do you expect them to do. They've already lost so much, they've got nothing better to lose. Ahah....u see, i feel i'm somewhat similar to them. but only, i've got something to lose. I cannot afford that cause its so important to me. Its killin me inside but thats what i practically live on....Well, i cant do anything about it, for now at least. Hopefully one day...yea...Till then ill just sit my drunk ass on that fuckin railway and just watch the clouds go by. Cause thats all i can do right now.
got fucked at.. 2:33 PM
