SomeWhere Among Da Trees

A new post in the new year... Finally

2009-01-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

Okay... after a loooooong time I'm updating Forrester's blog. Haha, well 2008 is OVER and 2009 is going to be a fantastic year! Although right now I'm worried sick about a module that I have not gotten yet. Haiz, anyways, missing you darling. We recently celebrated our 2nd fabulous year together and I'm more in love with him each day... Before it gets too lovey dovey, hmm... Forrester is basically quite lazy which is why he has literally abandoned his blog. So right now responsibility calls, and I have answered (I mean, to update the blog). Haha, school is a jumpstart for me and NS, a fatal attraction for him. Oh yeah, he bruised his arm while running into a rusty pole. BOYS....

Bugan
Conduct- passing time

2008-09-14T17:02:00.002+08:00

Again and again and again..

Yes i know, ive been abandoning my blog again. But i don't care anymore. I'll only update it when i don't feel lazy. The rest of the time, my baby will update it for me. Anyway last week thursday i had a special training. I took a freakin ride on a freakin chinook. It was damm cool. i loved it. I know not many people have ever taken a helicopter and would most probably think that its the same as taking an aeroplane. Well actually to tell you all the truth, WRONG!!!! Its an entirely different feeling. And the best thing about this is that ill be doing it again. Wahaha... Cant wait. But this coming tuesday is gonna be outfield. Haizz i just hate outfield...

Doing some research over the weekend. Found out some stuff that might determine the rest of my life and my career. Well at least hopefully. Although something i have just confirmed doesn't really make me happy. In fact i'm not really happy at all..But ill just have to except it. What else can i do...sucks to be uncertain...haizz... Anywya cant wait to watch the victor wooten concert.. A must for all bass players...

I'm missing my baby so much...haizz..wish she was with me right now...I just wish i could see her everyday....I love you....

2008-09-04T13:44:00.002+08:00

UNI IS CRAZY

I know that was a miserable attempt at a rhyme. Since entering uni, I feel that there's not much time to do a lot of stuff. Our wonderful tutors have started to give "homework". haiz... missing Forrester but then again I'm glad that I can still meet him during the weekends.. at least... I'm missing Fides too. A lot... Anw, projects are coming up, some courses more demanding than the others... Nvr mind it'll pass. See Forrester, I updated ur blog!!! hehe (:

-Bugan

2008-08-30T21:45:00.002+08:00

Why...

Have been really abandoning my blog. Well its cause im really lazy. The thing is that weekends are damm precious now. Since im gonna bloody hell stay in my camp for the next bloody 2 years... it seriously sucks. but what can i do, thats NS for you. so i just feel like there's not enough time to do everythin i want to.

But anyway thats's besides the point now. Right now i'm just waiting for my course to finish. Thats another 7 weeks. Well i woudn't say its that long though. Just cant wait for it. Also cant wait to buy my psp 3000. But most importantly, i cant wait to see my girl tommorrow. Haizz..been missing her like mad for the whole of this week. Don't know why....But anyway im happy..Afew more hours..haha...

2008-07-27T12:09:00.002+08:00

Ok Week..

Well, had a slightly leceh week...alot of crap. But nevertheless not as long as BMT..greatful for that. My seniors tell me that only from next week onwards, the tiring stuff is gonna start. Quite scary/ Not really sure wads gonna be in store for us.Hopefullly its ok. And hopefully i can take it..haizz... Now reallty waiting for ORD. Bloody stupid thing cant it come any faster. So freaking slow. Very irritating. Feeling crap again today. Have to book in..wad else. Juz wan this week to run fast as well. As in how we want all the weeks to run. So that i can see my marshmellow. Later gonna see her again. Cant wait..

Anyway other den my Ns life, nothing much to say. Nothing much happened to me. O yea got,,, lol...the recording thing is finally taking place. Now this is seriopusly quite scary.. Coz its very serious. Im creating a freakin album. wad the hell is bigger then tt..I guess i really have to practice as much as i can..Not gonna be easy..But i committed myself to it so tts wad im gonna do. Anyway tts all for this week. so until next week....

2008-07-20T10:28:00.002+08:00

So long..

Ok..its been a dam long time since i updated this blog..especially with comments from CERTAIN people calling it a dead blog...Grrr....Anyway i strongly stick to my stand of reasoning to my DEAD blog..Well mainly cause since i now know that my NS life is gonna be stay in for the next 2 bloody years, weekends have suddenly become so freakily precious. Everything i wanna do has to be done within that short period of 2 days. It sucks..but what can i do. I don't have a choice unless i down pes of coz...but nahhh.... to tell yall the truth, my camp is quite fun...I mean the people there love to bullshit alot. And they are nice at the same time. Moreover the food is good. The residency is alright. So basically life there is fine la...Plus i get to do so much more crap that i never imagined i wud ever be able to do in my life. So thats good too....

So yall can basically see that my life is somewhat OK in camp. Well thats actually only in camp. What about the rest of the areas. Aha... now thats an entirely different story. But there is still something similar though. I still have no choice in what i wanna do yet. Or worst, I don't know what to do. I have a question. And if anyone can give me a practical answer to it, then god bless u forever. What would the next step be for a person who has uncertainties in his life? And when i mean uncertainties, i really mean until as soon as what could happen tomorrow. So if anyone could answer me this question then please do. Until that ill just sit my drunk ass on this fucking railway until the train decides to arrive.

Well if anybody wants to know how my life is going on currently, well this is it. Ta-dah!!!

2008-05-13T21:01:00.004+08:00

Hey Forrester sorry for not updating your blog for so long.... hehe... lazy... I know that you are going thru one helluva time in Tekong, never mind, go ahead and serve the nation, baby. But just know that I miss you SOOOOOO much! It's just our 'luck' that you lost your handphone. Haiz... Seriously, that feels like crap.

Anyway, thank God the primary school called after like 2 weeks coz they need a relief teacher. Will keep me busy for awhile. You know what, there can be NOTHING better than teaching in your own primary school and it is more special coz it's a GIRLS' school. Haha, yep that's the feminist side of me talking.

If by any chance, NS guys out there are thinking that they are the ones missing their family and girlfriends, what about the girls who miss you guys like mad?! Forrester, I love you...muacks... ok, gotta sign off now before I get emo. CONDUCT: Going to teach my sis something called the alimentary canal. Damn me if I knew anything about it first of all.

-Bugan

2008-04-20T12:53:00.003+08:00

No More..

I've been feeling so fucked lately..This feling really sucks. Its like i keep thinking of what the hell is gonna happen in the future. Well actually i kinda have a good reason for that. There is sop much of questions that is to answered. And the fact that i'm not even getting a clue is killing me inside so slowly that i think i'm decomposing even before dying. That's fucked, cause given the choice, i would rather die. But i can't, that's the bloody problem.

But then i realized, its really of no use if i just keep reasons to excuse my feelings. No matter how true the can be, they are still excuses. There is no point in trying to find excuses to support your feelings. Cause in actual fact, you're actually making your feelings worst everytime. the problem with me is that, that is exactly what i'm doing. Now aint that fucked up. I know... Don't bother complaining about it now. That's why i'm gonna stop. Stop everything. Go back to the attitude that i had before. I realized something about army.

Alot of people say that Army makes a man more hard on the inside, especially less caring towards others and all. Then again these are just rumours. I feel that Army actually makes a guy more sensitive towards what he feels. Its the fact that he faces problems within life in Army that makes him more aware of them. As a result, he tends to embrace them and tries to find ways of curing them. People might not actually realize it, but this is form of sensitivity by itself. The fact that a person actually feels a need to change the way he feels about something shows that he actually cares more about it then he thinks. But that's just life in Army. What if, just what if, a person tries to balance out he internal and external feelings. Now wouldn't that be a bummer. Why? Maybe because its much much harder. Firstly he has to identify it, then think about it, especially seeing if it worth all his trouble. But that's just the easy part. He has to talk. Now that's where the difficulty arises. Not much of who to talk to, but more of what to talk about. The person may even have a hard time saying out his problems. Why? cause he only recognises it in his heart and mind, but not as an external influence. In other words, he has no clue what it is about. But then again it does. At this point most of you would be probably thinking that i'm talking utter rubbish. And i don't blame you. But if you were the person that i have been talking about all this time, you probably would agree with me. In fact, you would totally understand what the hell i'm trying to say.

This is not stress, and certainly is not depression. So that's one worry of the chart. Maybe it can be related to paranoia, but i wouldn't say much. But then again, i might not be right at all, hey i'm not even a psychologist. But one thing i do know is that what i just said is totally true at least for me. Some of you may not agree with me, and some of you might even want to spit on me(figuratively speaking). But I know that some of you who have just read this might actually relate to me. And that's not a good thing in case wondering. This aint something to be happy about.

But let me stress out a point that i've just realized after quite awhile. In my case, i have someone very special to me. Who really means alot me, whom i wanna be with for the rest of my life. She means more than anything to me and nothing is ever gonna change that i can proudly and confidently say. It is actually because of her that i'm actually standing right now. If not, I wouldn't even be writing this. all the stuff i've mentioned above, it all becomes very unreasonable after awhile. Especially after it starts to affect someone you dearly care about. Whether directly or indirectly, she feels it. And that breaks my heart. Not only because it isn't fair, but mainly because she wants to go through everything that i'm going through. In the process, she gets hurt so much. Nobody and i mean nobody who has anybody as special as she is to me would ever be able to take that.

So this is a stand i'm taking. I might not be able to solve all my problems now. i might not be even able to get over it easily. But the fact is that there is someone out there who understands and is willing to go through with me. So i'm going to stop. I'm going back to the way i was before. Fuck the world. Just do what i have to do and carry with life. Only jumping along every hurdle as i reach it and not any sooner. It might be harder later in life. But i'm not scared about that. Because i know that i have someone to help me along the way. So i am confident. So my baby, this is my promise to you. I may take awhile, it may be hard for me to get back to the way i was before. But i promise you that i will change back to the same old baked potatoe i was before. That will be my promise. And you will always have my heart forever. I love you my marshmellow..

2008-03-30T13:15:00.002+08:00

SELDOM....

Weekend book out time..Gotta go back to camp today evening. That sucks..But that's life, no point trying to skip...I'll only get into more trouble. Haiz..Kinda miss my friends and family and especially my gal. O by the way, she would be updating my blog from time to time.

Anyway some updates about me..I'm doing my NS now for some of you oblivious to your surroundings. I'm in Falcon Company. Well that's all I can say, the rest is confidential. Well ya the training is tiring. But that's only during training. After that i'm just normally tired. It doesn't really matter anyway. Coz in the end i'll still have to do it and i cant hide from it.

But that's besdides the point. My main aim is just to finish this off and get on with my life whatever direction it takes. No more pondering over what's happening, gonna happen or already happened. So right now i'm just gonna play my online game and heck care about anything. Till next time....

2008-03-23T18:29:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl.... This is Bugan.. Forrester has entered NS and I'm missing him like mad... haiz... sometimes I just wish that I had his f*** it attitude and juz relax. Anywayz, A'levels was a heart-stopper. And things after that has juz been applying for unis. yeah, sounds boring doesn't it?? yep, it has been frustratingly so... oh, I've been banned from borrowing books by the National Library Board, I mean cum on' who doesn't have overdue items.
Conduct- BORED at the moment. okies, signing off now, will try to look for sumthing productive to do. sumtimes, life juz SUX.

2008-02-19T11:20:00.009+08:00

There it goes....

Had a hard time during this week. Well not say a hard time, a rather challenging and tiring time. Although i don't really know why i feel so tired, lately its becoming very apparent in my life. Maybe i'm just getting old..sian...cause i was thinking of the possibilities of what actually makes me feel this way and i came to a conclusion. I'm a slacker.

Besides all this, all of you reading this crap might actually be aware right at this point of time that i do not have anything to actually right about. BUT..i think i've got something interesting. On valentine's day. i went out with my honey...DUH!!! But i went somewhere that might shock everybody to death. I went to the national museum. Wahaha...But i went for a reason ok. It just so happens that pieces from the louvre is here. Its like a once in a life time chance. Besides its something that i really am into. MEDIEVAL HISTORY. Ok anyway lemme be piece of propaganda for now. The pieces from the Louvre Museum will be showcased in the National Museum of Singapore from 9th of December to the 16th of March at 8 bucks per entry. Open from 10am to 6pm. Anyway before i bore yall more, i'm gonna show yall some photos that i took. Enjoy..

This a sculpture of a greek goddess "Aphrodite"

My favourite of all..This one has a rather melancholy tone to it. Its called the "veiled woman"

The one and only...Socrates...

This sculpture of a man holding a discuss is set to reprsent what the greeks were famous for...The Olympics...

This is "NIKE". You would think that shoes would not have existed during those times after reading her history.

Well anyway that's all i have to show. Actually i have more than 30 photos, but i'm cerainly not going to put it all in here. So go see it if yall are interested. O, btw...I checked with MOE and they said that they themselves do not know when the results would be out. But they would give at least a 2 day advanced notice. So stop coming up with your own dates and starting rumours before kick your asses..bitches...

2008-01-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

2nd Post after a long time...

Again another boring ol post from me as said by anna...uhhummm..Well...the last post was waaaaay emo. But feeling abit better now. So no more emo-ness. Currently trying to memorize Hotel California on bass.. Quite ok la. Just the memory part..Sian...Well the whole reason is cause my band, Cheesetart. Yes. Cheesetart. We should be performing at Ben n Jerry's in February. but the date is not even confirmed yet. And we have not even practiced one song as band together. Ok thats cause our one and only lead guitarist happens to be visiting his family in China until the 29th of Jan and has no clue whatsoever that we are performing. Most likely its gonna be a gigantic shock for him the moment he returns. Cause his first sms would not even be a hi, but instead me telling him what songs he shoud immediately start practicing on.

Well anyway thats besides the case. Whats more important is that can we actually pull this gig off. Hopefully. A new guy is inside. Until now i really don't whats his real name. But my friend told me to call him either Hamdi or Hamsatay. I think i'll stick to Hamdi. Sounds better than calling someone satay.

Ok updates on what's happening or happened or about to happen during this week and towards the rest of my miserable life. Well..let's see..mm..aha..i'm currently teaching tuition for 2 kids. Its private tuition. I'm taking science. Don't panick. Its only primary 5 and sec 2. O, i'm also teaching Choa Chu Kang Sec as a guitar enrichment class teacher...haha..what are the odds...But its actually quite fun i gotta admit. I mean you get to see children of all shapes and sizes. Wahaha...I've see stems as well as hippos. Not bad. But hell it beats being a student anyday.

Nothing much though other than this. Pretty boring gotta say. Well you know what. Who the hell gives a shit anyway..HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

Back?? or am i just fooling myself...

Wow..its been long. 6 months?hmm...hard time though. Wonder why i'm back at writing this stuff anyway. Is it all that bad? Well part of it has been very good actually. I'm in love. Yea really. Might seem like a joke, but its true. Some of yall motherfuckin skeptics might ask "Well if i'm REALLY in love, then what does it feel like?". Well for ya'll bastards. I've only got one answer. It feels like nothing you guys would ever feel. Don't start getting definitions on it all. If its there, its there. don't ask me motherfucking questions as if i divided the sea with my bare hands.

Well that's only the good part. Been feeling a little fucked. Don't really know the reason. Well maybe i do. But if i do, i can't find it. That sucks doesn't it. I mean you know its there, right in front of your eyes. But you can't find it and you can't even do anything about that. But you see the worst part of it actually begins when you actually find out the reason. Aha...know that's where the real problem starts. Why? Simple. What are you gonna do next? Forget about it? Perhaps try to solve it. Either way you would realize that a great sacrifice exists somwhere. and it just ain't good. Not easy either. But hey!! You win some you lose some right?? Hahaha....My fucking ass bitch. Soon you would realize that winning would only be a short term gain. In the end its better to lose. Coz you see, at least you wouldn't feel the faint happiness that you know you would only enjoy its company for awhile. Ha.

Anyway..it doesn't really matter. In the end no matter how faint of an idea you have about the situation, you somehow would know how its gonna turn out. So no point really in actually trying to figure something you know will never be there. Just stop hiding from the truth. It stupid..

Ya'll may know what i'm talking about. But some of ya'll may think i'm ranting as usual. Yea right...whatever...wadda way to start reposting eh..cool...

2007-07-08T12:41:00.000+08:00

S. O. S

Wooohooo..i just realized my blog is totally green.. This kinda means that i support the LiveEarth thingy i guess.... not bad la.. pep pep pep peeep peeep peeep pep pep pep...damm cathy tune..
lol......GO GREEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm totally up for the enivronment conservation stuff..

2007-07-03T18:52:00.000+08:00

As it is now....

Mm...life as it is now. Not really fine though. Took quite a long break from blogging. last post was 1st June, now its like wow...more than a month. Well what the hell.. Better now than never. Studying was not my reason for not blogging. In fact, I'm gonna fail my mid-year so bloody badly. Couldn't help it. The holiday mood just called out to me. Anyway going through a gigantic state of depression right now. No I'm not cutting my wrists, listening to emo and wearing black eyeliner. Just plain'ole, non-suicidal unadulterated depression.

Yea i know..Don't really sound like i'm in a depressive state. But that's cause i just took 2 freaky days off my life. In the middle of my mid-year is not really a good choice. But i can't help it, i know that i'm gonna fail badly. Even if did the rest of the papers with flying colours, the previous papers would be my bottomless pit.

ANYWAY...Really needed a point to just suddenly stop wadeva i'm doing n just sit back and stop thinking. Didn't even talk to my gal... Just needed some time off to get things straight, Well it kinda helped. Was able to ease of alot of pain. But as usual, more miseries just keep coming your way. Don't really care on trying to solve all of it anymore. Can't be bothered. So ill just keep goin in life as it is. If i die too bad...If i survive, well good for me.

O yea, just for the record, i would like say something to those motherfuckers who are so fucking gay, they keep comming back to the same problem over and over again. Thinking that by say the same fucking shit over and over again, they can make everything right to whoever that dissed. Yea maybe everything would be a little clearer if the subject was that of sexism. Just get the fuck over it. People don't give a shit, They're satisfied with their life as it is. If you wanna tok about sexism, go to the fucking press or some redneck psychologist. Don't bring it up in school and spoil everyone's life. So this is fucking warning to you. Yes, a warning. If you ever say any fuck about this shit and especially pinpoint to certain people. I personally will whack the fuck out of you and make sure your in the fucking hospital. You would be lucky if your not dead. Cause i will not hesitate to kill. I would'nt mind going to jail coz ridding you from this world would be like supporting world peace. So, get the fuck over it and just shut the fuck up before someone else gets you earlier, stupid motherfuck........

2007-06-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

This Sucks...

Ok firstly, i have not been abandoning my blog. Its just that i rarely come online properly..not cause i was busy studying or anything. But more of the fact that i'm fucking depressed, like a bitch. Yea i know...sounds like any other teenager going through some teenage mid-life crisis or some shit. But honestly, i don't give two-fucking-hoots how it sounds like. Seriously can't be bothered. I think everyone agrees with me on this one, school sucks, people suck..life just sucks, period. ALTHOUGH, i must definitely not forget those who have such a good life, and who totally refute this meaningless little claim of mine. Well fuck yall....Don't give a shit what yall think. My life just sucks, and that's it.

It has somewhat come to a point where talking offers no use at all. No more listening, no more talking, no more feeling sad, no more sympathy. I'm just fucking it all off. The only way this wounds gonna heal is when i'm sure everything is at my control. When i'm sure everything i wanted to happen, happens. that's gonna be the time of my life where i can finally just sit back, relax and release all my worries.

I'm sure many people whom i know feel the exact same way as i do. Just wanting everything around em to stop, and finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Well right now, the tunnel ain't ending for me, and the only light i'm seeing, is just from another freight train. So that's just too fucking bad for li'l ole me. Mr. Don't-Give-A- Fuck still won't plead. HAHA....It all just sounds so bloody funny after awhile. Ha..Well you know what, who the fuck cares..ah fuck it...

2007-05-26T13:28:00.000+08:00

Another survey...-.-""

Condoms: yea..hehe...
Cell phone: DUH!!!
Chair/stool: eh..ya...
Book shelf: nop...dun read...
Dresser: yea..1 bigggg one...
Computer: NOP...in e hall..sianzz...
Bean bag: Use to have a gargantuan one..
Pictures: yea alot of albums....
Mirror: Ya, a big round one..
Skateboard: No..dun skate..
Bed: Ya, a queen size..
Clothes on the floor: Most of the time...
Surfboard: ya as if waves in Singapore macham tsunami...
Smoke detector: No need...
Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums: Guitar and bass....^^..
Locking door:ermm..i tot all doors got lock?
Bottle of water: for wad...
A blacklight: no..but i want one..
Medals/ribbons: Ya alot..hehe..
Awards: same as e above..
sport accessories: ya..shoes goggles ..tt kinda stuff..
CDs: too many to mentions
Flag: Germany..haha..
stop sign/any sign: No...not tt lame..
Caution tape: no..everyone noes i'm dangerous enough
Paintball: wads tt??
Real Gun: I wish...
Cigarettes: Threw out the last pack ages ago...
Candle: ya i think...
Books: uhh..oni skl books which i dun seem to touch..
Nintendo: Yea..the old old GB n GB advance..
Play Station: Got...but like gonna die ready..
Xbox: yea hehe..
Stereo: yup...
Television: ya...
Lighter: ya alot..dunno for wad oso..
Gum: no all in e fridge..
How many windows do you have in yourroom?: err...1...
What is the color of your walls?: Wallpaper..
Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?: BIG BIG tiles...
What color is your bed?ermm..white..but sheets are green..
what is on your walls?.erm..calendar??
Has the opposite sex been in your roombefore? ermm like..DUH!!!!

2007-05-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

No More....

Well band practices have officially finished. No more practices. Kinda sad. It was like only 1 month since i joined, but still it was very fun. Well here are some pics from after the dinner in school...

Don't ask.....

A little posing from da peeps..

From band to choir...

We weren't ready...

Caught in the act...

Don't mess with em...

Very very sad....

Nice asses...

Contented...

Angels from the back...

Our names on e boards..Special people...

More posing...

No pinching....

On the couch...

More couch potatoeing..

All look so innocent...Ha...

I swear that don't look like me...

2007-05-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

Another one of them quizzes..

1. Your name with "nilation" at the end...
Forresternilation..-.-""
2.What did you have for breakfast thismorning?
I don't take breakfast...
3. Last movie you saw in the cinema?How was it?
Ermm...Ghost Rider..
4.Imagine a place, a perfect place,what does it look like?
Anywhere with my girl....
5. Three words to best describe whatyou're feeling at the moment?
Sticky, Bored, Lazy...
6.Anything to say to some person?
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
7. What would you like to say to your president if he/she is in front of you now?
Yo homie.....Wads diggin??
8. The color of the computer mouse you're using now?
Grey and black with blue neon light on the roller and red laser as a sensor
9. What food do really you want rightnow?
I feel like puking...too full....
10. Name of your future son & daughter?
I'll think of that when i get one....
11. Pick one as a pet: a bear, ashark, an elephant, a rhino...
Why don't they ever put pigs???
12.If in the next 10 seconds what you say will be heard in each and every ear in the whole world, what would yousay?
Get a life!! Bunch of assess....
13. Complete the sentence: I'll be happy if he/she is...
happier...
14. Who would you like to kiss at the moment?
My girl...
15. If you can enter ANY movie, which movie would you like to enter?
Right now.. Pirates of the Carribean 3.. Can't wait..
16. One thing you hate this month?
School..o wait..that's every month...
17. One thing you like this month?
Seeing my girl....
18. If tomorrow is the world's end,what would you do?
Be with all the people i love..
19. What's the last item that you bought?
Ermm..Pizza..
20. What would you like to say to the next person who will fill- in this next questionnaire?
You're damm bored aren't you...
21. When is your birthday?
In July....
22. If you can make one cartoon character, what would the name be?
BOOGACHUGGLABUMPSITOOT...
23. Seriously is this questionnaire boring?
Well no... IF YOU"RE A NO LIFE!!!!

2007-05-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

100th post!!!!!!

This is my 100th post people..yea...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!~ ok..that wasn't really necessary..hey but who the hell cares....i should probably go buy myself a cake or something....nah nvrmin..can't be bothered to waste money. Freaking broke....Bloody hell..life sucks without money. Can't seem to buy anything without it. Whats worst...the GST is getting higher. Damm....

Anyway...woke up today morning and finished nearly all of my homework. Still have some graphic organizers to do. But thats like due way later.. I think the following week. That's like totally besides the point...I mean i totally hate doing graphic organizers..Their of no bloody use to me. Seriously, i don't see the point. Well maybe many others find it useful and much more user-friendle. But sorry babe, it don't do nothin for me. Just a freaking big waste of time. I'm just the plain ole' pencil and paper with points kinda guy.

You know i kinda noticed something. People normally..and i mean normally use their blogs to talk about what had happened to them recently. Or maybe just something they find really cool or wierd. Somewhat like a online public diary or something. I kinda use mine to rant my ass off. I mean all the shit i hate and the people i dislike all come into this little page. And i don't really see the point of it all. Actually i was never used to blogging. Only started this last year, after my friend convinced me to start one. Well the only reason why i'm actually continuing this is cause it kinda does help..abit at least. Hmm...I think only when i'm damm angry of something or what la..Something like that... Anyway... Gonna go for dinner now. So just fuck off and close this page. GOODBYLE!!!!

2007-05-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

A LOOOOOOOONG TIME...

Lets see...it has been nearly 1 month since i blogged. Well sorry guys....i was seriously very busy all the way. Had band practice nearly everyday. For the past week, i did have it everyday. And i never reached home before 9pm. So by the time i came home, i died straight on the bed,no questions asked. Yet came to school and continued my sleep. Just very tired. But anyway i have to say we did like i expected though. Got a SILVER. That's good. At least we kept our standard. I think i should really say something about this SRJC band. I'm gonna say it here, but this friday too. So that everyone knows.

The main reason why i didn't join band at first was because of the conductor. Anthony Chew. Well i'm sorry, but i can't take him. No St pats can. Just a little bad history and all. So i just couldn't help myself to join. I know if i had joined, i would have been really picked on. But once i heard the instructor changed to the VS instructor, then i realized why not. I mean i love playing the Euphonium, and of course i love playing music. Music is my life....Anyway for the past 3 weeks i joined, i was made to play a solo for SYF...Sorry for screwing it up guys..But the point is i still had a lot of fun. It was seriously very fun. Had a great time. Although i regret not joining in the first place, i still treasure this little time i spent with you guys. Would never forget: the mistakes, the jokes, the kisses, the rape scenes, the foul mouths, the anger, the air,sweat and tears...It was a time to remember. Well this friday's gonna be the last time performing. So ill just save the rest of this little speech later...Thanks for making this such a great time to remember guys....love yall...

Besides all that, after the syf, went to pizza hut to (celebrate/relieve). It was bloody fun. O yea forgot to mention. Found out that i made a total mistake about someones personality. Thought she was a very quiet, conservative kind. Turns out shes even worst than me. Yea exactly, what could be worst than me??? Then i realized..it was possible.

So reached home around 11+...Was so tired, just knocked out until today around 12. Got up and finally finished the history corrections. Kinda waiting to play this friday again, coz there's free dinner involved..hehe....

Desperately waiting for monday too...Missing you like hell. Managed to see my gal only for a few minutes on friday..Could talk to her only for awhile today. Wanna see her desperately on monday. Cant wait...Love you darling...

Anyway that's my life story..ok fine, not my life...technically the past week of my life. If it were to be my life, you'd be dead by now. So i better sign off before i start talking more rubbish and make you cry. Until next time, psst... gonna be my 100th post...lol...GOODBIVE!!!

2007-04-20T18:24:00.000+08:00

Guess Who's Back!!!

Actually i also dunno. Nevermind. I don't care..lol...Anyway just finished my common tests today. FINALLY!!!!...Maths is over!!!. You know i counted the amount of marks that i'm gonna roughly get from my maths paper. Its not as if i did everything. I didn't know how to even start 3/4 the bloody questions. How i wished i took something more wordy. Well too late to complain now. Yea..provided i get all my questions correct and obtain max marks, i'm still gonna fail!! After knowing that, i kinda gave up and went back to having a good old nap. What's the point in carrying on. I have know idea how to do the rest, so might as well just sleep. Besides i needed the sleep fo history lecture later.

Well, after that went to the new cafe in school. The food is seriously not bad eh. Kinda got greedy. Ate one baked potato with chicken, an apple lattice and later bought a peach tart. Yea it was good. Next thing is to try my most favouritietsesteesst thing of all...COFFEE!!!! But lets just save that for later.

Went to try out the band in school today. I guess i'll be attending another SYF after all. Its on 11 May if i'm not wrong. Playing my beloved instrument EUPHONIUM again. Finally after such a long while, i'm playing a instrument. PHEW....Kinda missed it. Needa go back to st.pats to play my wife.Missing her desperately. Hopefully my juniors ahve taken good care of her.

Well, thats pretty much it today. O yea, this is another video by the almighty Wierd Al. Its called 'Amish Paradise'...a parody of gangsters paradise by coolio. A must watch!!i swear....

2007-04-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

New Shoes!!

Woke up quite early today. Was freaking tired yesterday. Went for annual church visiting. By the time i came back home, legs were killing me. My hunger was totally wiped away. Instead, i knocked out on the spot went i reached home. Well, the sleep was good while it lasted. Had to wake up at 8 today morning to go to church. Wasn't that bad though. I didn't feel as cranky as yesterday.

My family and I came back from church and left our house again. Why, don't ask...We could have just went straight to united square straight after church. But we were just very fickle minded i guess. Hey what the hell, it already happened.

AND we came home after that, but only leave to bishan again. Yea, i know..seriously like what the hell is going on here. Its as if we just missed our home too much. But anyway that 3rd trip was not gone to waste at all. In fact, it was very beneficial to my very personal needs. Yup.... Bought a new pair of converse. Not bad. Wanted to buy this damm cool looking black high cut pair with alot of wavy lines. But just didn't have the budget. My budget was only 70 bucks. So instead i bought this other cool pair. Which is also not bad looking as well. Some of yall might know it. It the SAILOR JEREY series. It has a skull on the side. It would look much nicer it was in black. But this is kind of a dark khaki-ish colour. I think, can't remeber. Its in my room, too lazy to check now.

So basically thats what happened today, the 6th of April, 2007. Another memorable day of my fruitful life. Ha.... Yea right... I wish....

2007-04-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

Yea Fine..Get Lost....

You know i've really been abandoning my bloggy woggy wooggly poo quite lately.. Ok..shit, that's so god damm gay. Dammit. At least i update it at least once a week, unlike someone i know whos name starts with a J and ends with a acqueline. Well that's totally besides the point. Yea, digressing from the whole point of this entry. I'm like suppose to rant about this mofo who nearly made me loose my head on wednesday. I hope the son of a bitch reads this. He will know how much hes being loved by all of us. O yea, and please god, let a teacher who knows this bitch read this entry too... They would tell him and he would know. WEEEE!!!!

Well, it all started on like a very long time. My friend asked me if i wanted to join a CIP programme for the JC1 parents (who asked very stupid Qs by the way). So what the hell, i said ok. Needed the hours for SGC anyway. A few weeks later i found out that i had a recording to do. Even after me and the chinaboy said we didn't want to do the recording. Anyway, last wednesday..he scolded me for not coming for the recording an all that fucking crap. But for every shitty question he gave me, i gave him back an answer. That irritating motherfucker kept asking the same questions. And i kept answering the same answers back at him. But the teacher next to him could not open her mouth cause she knew that whatever i was saying made sense. Well, all i know is a kept very calm during that time casue there were many people there. If i was alone, that fucker would be in the hospital right now. Well fuck that shit.

I just a few minutes ago that one of my good friend and brother is hopitalized. He's got testicular cancer. Oh God, why must the good always suffer. My friends are gonna meet him tomorrow. But i can't, i have school. What am i to do. Dammit. All i can do now is pray for him. He seriously dosen't deserve it man. Haizz.... Anyway when i'm free, ill go down to the hospital. Hang on bro. You'll be alright.

Well that about sums up everything i wanted to say. Kinda forgot everythin after hearing this news. Haizzz

2007-03-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

SOO LONG.....

Spent quite awhile trying to find out how to change the size of the font. Lol..I guess i'm slower than i thought. Never blogged for quite awhile now. Couldn't find the time to. Had so much of stupid stuff to do. Like re-writing the stupid history common test answers. They say its suppose to help us, honestly i don't see how. I just find it very stupid and a bloody big waste of precious time. I think its more of an indirect consequence for failing the history test. But some people just don't have enough balls to say it out loud. Faggots. Anyway this is gonna be quite a long post. So sit-back, or just cancel the page if your too lazy. Believe me, i know the feeling.

Ok lets see... Well nothing much happened during the week. But this friday had CIP for the JC1 parents seminar. Was a college tour guide. Not bad. Found out that parents actually do ask dummer questions than their kids if they have nothing to say.
One parent didn't believe one of my friend when she told her that our school was built in 1988. I mean what the hell is there not to believe??? The parent insisted that our school was built in like 2000+. Too much arguing. Another parent could even ask if our school was the lousiest school in Singapore. Wooopdidooooo...Whatever bitch. If you think this school sucks so much, get your bloody child out. Why let him stay? This school is just too little for him. But lets see if he survives any better in another college. So just F off.....

Anyway, despite all these stupid mishaps, we still had quite alot of fun. Like when we were slacking in the canteen and disturbing Jon Chia about his colour blindness. That was super funny. We made him think a pink coloured paper was totally green. Than he realized that it was pink after a looooooong while under the light. O yea, also got to spend some quiet time with my gal. The school was quiet peaceful near the hall at night.

Besides that, went for a seminar at CJC today. MMM...always followed this saying for this school. "So close, yet so far". Haizz....O yea, did i mention its only 10 minutes away from my house. SRJC is about 50 minutes. So i think you'll roughly get what i mean. Ok, this fellow, Kishore Mabhubani, if i'm correct in spelling his name that way. He was the guest speaker for today. Quite a big guy. Currently dean at LKY school of Public Policy, former UN ambassador for Singapore twice. O yea, president of the UN security council on two occasions. Not bad for a Singaporean i say. His talk was quite enriching though. Learnt quite alot. But being an official history student, i can't help but be critical. Of course it's always biased. He served the UN for god's sake. He'll take their side for sure. Oh well, whatever, nevermind. I'll worry about that kind of publicity if i do politics. Until that, don't really give a shit.

But his speech was nice, i have to say. Unlike the other two speakers. One looked like he just got out of bed, the other just read of the slide. Come on, We're all bloody Jc students, I think we can manage to read a couple of words,bloody hell. But that time wasn't wasted for me though. Went to the toilet to meet my friend. HEHE... Long lost band bro. Ok maybe not long lost, but still...ah whatever, too lazy to explain.

So after that whole thing, came back home. Didn't really feel tired on the bus, so i thought i could come home to do some work. but when i reached home, holy shit i knocked out the moment i lay down on my bed. My brother had to jump on me a few times to wake me up for church. Then suffered back ache all the way..-_-""....But still managed to stay awake during mass, that's cause i was playing a game on my hp. LOL...MM. O yea, then i went to Toa Payoh to buy new underwear. I know i know, not something i should publicize, but hey, I cant be bothered. HAHA.

So that's pretty much it. I thing has got to be one of the longest post i had ever written. Nevermind. Good training for GP. Now time to play Pirate King Online, yea, i get to kill crabs and oysters. It's so cool....

2007-03-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

Organic Anti Beat-Box Band

Sorry didn't know what title to put, so just kept a title from a chili peppers song. Haha... Anyway went back to school today. DUHH!!!!...A levels boy, no such thing as holidays anymore. But it was ok la, managed to survive one and a half hours of each lesson. Nearly dosed off for history though. No matter, Stephen Tay's bloody lame jokes woke me straight up. Hmmm....wonder why i prefer him to lecture so much. Let's see, he's clear,precise,funny,lame,dosen't waste time doing unwanted homo actions. Well that kinda sums it all up. i'm sure anyone would prefer him.

O yea, got back the results for the stupid history essay writing competition. Apparently we got the worst class award. HEY!! it was because we handed it in late ok. Anyway the winning prize was 6 miserable cups of bubble tea!! Woopdidoo!! I mean everybody would just die for that kind of privillege. Yea right, give me a serious break.

Anyway gonna do some serious stuff now. Maybe something that will improve my life in some kind of way. Don't really know..Ciao..

2007-03-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

LOOOOONG TTIIME....

Bloody hell....took so bloody long to log in..I think i'm having the same problem as Reetha. Don't know la...sian...Such a long time since i came here. Well, not that i'm busy or lazy...my goddam internet got spoilt again. Yea i know. What are the odds. I feel like throwing this damm thing out the window. The bloody thing, errmm, i think they call it a modem or some shit. Fuck that...

Anyway...a whole lotta shit happened during this time of dear absence from my online friend. All my friends told me i changed quite a lot. And i'm not being boastful, mind you stereotypical assoles...Well i don't know. I kinda feel it too... I mean its all casue of you. Is it all good or bad? I guess we'll only know at the end of the year. But don't worry, i have a good feeling it's gonna be good...haha...No worries there, for know at least...until the A exams start..Damm, i just had to remind myself about that...Well no use trying hide it from my mind. I face it every damm day..Even have the bloody schedule for it..shit..I'm scaring myself right now....=.=""...

Anyway, guess what, MY FUCKING USELESS PIECE OF SHIT NO GOOD BLOODY EXCUSE FOR A BLOODY MOHTERFUCKING CCA is goin CHOIR...WEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! yea right..gemme a break. As if my instructor is not gay enough..Fuck it..he is expecting me to sing i a bloody choir for the bloody 2nd cca recruitment for the freshmen...Gemme a goddam break...I don't fucking sing..choir for that matter..I'm not bloody hell gonna sing for the 2nd O..No way. Too bad homo, you'll just have to do it yourself. I can't be bothered one piece of fucking shit.. sooooo, FUCK OFFF, you fucking piece of crap...

2007-02-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

MY FEARS..yea rite...

ok i got this from friendster again...yea i get..i know, i have nothing better to do in my life. What do you want me to do?? I can't help it if i'm like that...Ok so this is exactly how i found it..

If you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29 you're normal.
If you get 11 to 20 you are pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
People who don't have any are dumb asses who want people to think they are tough stuff.
Everyone fears something... you justhave to find the right thing.

I Fear...
[ ] gay people
[ ] the dark
[ ] being single forever
[ ] being a parent
[] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] ants
[ ] driving
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] dark water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places( cause illend up late)
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilty
[ ] doctors, including dentists(especailly dentist)
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] shots
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone (at times)
[ ] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] blood
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[ ]someone you love or care about hurting you
[ ] love
[ ] Spiders
[ ] Needles

Well, it seems like i can't really be bothered about myself...haha...

2007-02-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY??

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! Chinese New Year Holdays!!! Yea right...My ass...I thought it was all suppose to be like 15 days and all?? BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, it must only be 2 days. O yea, did i mention there is still homework.... WHAT THE HELL....><"" There is a reason why the word holiday actually came about. Maybe if y'all actually think a little deeper, you might actually figure it out, ASSOLES!!!

But i guess there's not much to complain about anyway. This is bloody A levels year. Why the hell am i complaining. I should be studying right now instead of doing this shit. Bloody hell....

Well, here comes old contradictory me....Starting all my shit again. No point telling myself this anymore. I guess ill just have to live knowing i'm extremely dangerous psychopath...Yup, might as well just learn to except it now. Bitching is getting fun. Well of course, it has to be in a 'good' kinda way. MMM..~.~..

Going out tomorrow, maybe watching ghost rider. Stress reliever, don't get me wrong, its not that i'm studying. Its cause of my results. Yea, you guessed it. Do i even have to say it.

Well how can i if i'm talking so much of useless crap now and leaving so many paragraphs for no bloody good reason whatsoever...I guess, its just me...yea...right...

2007-02-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

I Like....How Much??

Found this "nothing better to do in life" kind of survey on friendster. Finally i'll know how much i'm worth after all...hehe...

1. Had sex: $6.00
2. Smoked: $5.00
3. Got drunk: $5.00
4. Went skinny dipping: $3.00
5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex:$4.00
6. Kissed someone of the same sex:$4.00
7. Cheated: $2.00
8. Fell asleep in class: $0.50
9. Been expelled: $5.00
10. Been in a fist fight: $3.00
11. Given oral: $5.00
12. Got oral: $5.00
13. Prank called the cops: $3.00
14. lied to ur parents: $1.00
15. Stole something: $2.00
16. Done drugs: $5.00
17.Dyed your hair: $0.50
18. lied about ur age: $3.00
19. Done something with someone older(like a few years): $3.00
20. Went out with someone OVER 18 (ifyour under 18): $4.00
21. Ate a whole thing of oreos: $0.50
22. Cried yourself to sleep: $1.00
23 .Said you love someone but didntmean it: $1.00
24. Been in love: $4.00
25. Got caught doing something thatyou shouldnt have been doing: $1.00
26. Went streaking: $4.00
27. Got arrested: $5.00
28. Madeout with someone at themovies: $2.00
29. Peed in the pool: $0.50
30. Played spin the bottle: $1.00
31. Done something you regret: $3.00

Waddya know, i'm worth 63 bucks. Thats cool. Well at least i'm worth something..ahem...

STARTING BID AT 50 DOLLARS !!!!!!

2007-02-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year

Had chinese new year celebration today, kinda sucked..TO THE CORE!!!! Well first place, our performance screwed up again. Then again, what's new. Its SRJC, ALL FOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUU....At least thank god the motherfucker didn't open his mouth today. At least i could enjoy the company of my friends and gay partners.. I'm sooo sorry darling, ^^. Although there was only one nice thing, some kindergarden kids did some dance on the stage. Got a close up view since i was backstage. Damm funny, also very cute.

After all that commotion, some CCAs went to visit Lim Kwang Home. Hopefully thats the correct spelling for it. Don't really care. Anyway, went there for nothing actually. i mean just for me and the china boy. We weren't performing, and not helping. Just stayed in the waiting room and played our guitars. HAHA....So from this you all can infer that we had a fucking boring time there. Well at least there were some people there that actually accompanied me. So i didn't really bored after all. Contradiction. I'm starting again. Bloody hell. Ah fuck it. Don't care.

So went out to hougang. Followed her for awhile. Nothing to do anyway. Wen to the library. 2nd time in 4 bloody years i entered a library. Wanted to borrow a book. But didnt la. It was of course something that doesn't involve much reading. It was on James Bond Girls.."phew".. I can tell you, the oler ones are sooo much more hotter and exotic than the later ones. Anyway i told my self i'm gonna borrow that book, just not now. HAHA...

OK..feeling tired. Going to sleep now. Ciao....

2007-02-11T09:26:00.000+08:00

In-Irregularity

That word, sooo different. Won't be blogging much nowadays, especially during weekdays. I guess i just don't have much time anymore. Will only be blogging on weekends. Looking at the fact tat i'm hardly online on weekdays. Anyway my phone is still unable to call, or sms for that matter. So ill update yall on my current status soon enough.

Anyway had quite a tough time this week. Lets see, on Monday had practice everything was still so unsure. Then on Wednesday the practice was even more fucked cause the motherfucker was there. But just to remain in a good mood, I just pretended he wasn't. That helped alot. I never said a word to him. He asked me something and i just nodded my head.Wahahaaha..... I think he's finally starting to realize it. He started complaining about where our singer's at...Then as usual we all lost our mood to play. However i have to say, we did it quite well that day. Seeing that we were missing one guitarist and a singer. And a snare drum and cymbals. HAHA...

Although i never went for the Friday practice. Had to do something important somewhere else. I heard it was bloody bad though. Singer was fucked, Guitars were wacked, and effects were screwed. Oh yea, did i mention i didn't go. That means there was no bass. Without bass, i can assure you the song was super empty. Well nevermind. Everything is figured out. SOOOOO on that day, we shouldn't have much of a problem. Most probably until i see that motherfuckers face.

OK, besides that. I got back my GPeeeeee results..ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! It was screwed up. Got a bloody S grade. Fuck man. Its like 20n a half over 50. How lame is that. J2 and still can't officially pass a compre. Dammit... I have to buck asap. Well, unlike SOME people i know who got a 29 and all la..aiyo....HAHAHA...just kidding la. Never actually congratulated you, sooo, ermm, CONGRATZZ!!

And i would like to officially ask for help on my blog. Could someone good enough out there pleas teach me how to buy gifts. For people that is... Its sooo bloody hard.
That's it, signing off now...Till next weekend.

2007-02-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

Lets all run....

Had to wake up early in the morning, seeing that its a saturday...bloody irritating. I mean we go to school 5 days a week. Isn't that enough? Do they still have to spoil our weekend. Anyway couldn't sleep yesterday night properly. Thinking too much i guess..haha. Also came to today to only someone la. No other incentive. Unlike some bloody lazy ass people i know. Talk so much yesterday about where to meet and all. In the end, their lazy bum still in their bed today morning.

It was kinda cool anyway. Walked about 3.2K in 1 hour. HAHAHA. I know..... bloody looooong. At this rate, NAPFA is a sure gonner. But the walk was fun la. Heard alot of stuff about zarifah. Don't worry gal, the buddha for sure didn't jump over the wall. And go check the signboards in Macritchie, i swear there are terrapins la. don't belive ask anyone... Well from that, you can roughly see how much fun we had while walking.

After the whole thing was over, we headed for J8. Tried escaping from some people..>.<"" Went to eat in Kopitiam, looking at the fact that some of us were vegetables (vegetarians). O yea, found out a very very coooool thing about PAMELA!! HAAHAHAHAH!!!! now your in my hands la pamela. No more wacking me. Cause if you do, the words might accidently spill out from my mouth from your force. HAHAHA!! I just love this blackmail crap. Its sooo bloody fun sia.

So that was like pretty much what happened today. O yea, did i mention that i'm blackmailing Pamela? Whoa..this feels damm good. HAHAHA!!!!

2007-02-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

Whew....

Finally!!!! EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!
Ok, enough with that. Although i think i'm gonna flunk damm badly, who the hell cares?!?!? Its over. HOWEVER, allow me to contradict myself, it has just begun. 1st test is over. Now is where the real test begins. Test on how much effort i've actually put into my school work. Well, for now i can say that i'm no where close to doing well. I'll have to work so bloody much harder for that. Especially for maths. That is the freakin killer. I'll just have to start from scratch. There's not much time anymore. If i'm gonna start it soon, its gotta be reeeeal soon, as in like, IMMEDIATELY!!! But until that, i'll just slack my lazy crap candy ass of on this chair typing this shit. But i swear i'll start soon.

Beside the part of me trying to start studying for the As, i have to say something to all the motherfuckers out there who think they know what music is. First, a definiton. Music is expression. Any kind of sound, as long as interpreted by someone, is music. It might not be to you, but to others it is. Ok, i don't like techno. But i know there are people out there who live on it. In their eyes, techno is music, and its their life. So what if i don't like techno, i won't listen to it and just keep my mouth shut. Better then giving comments. If i were to give comments, only to a person who shares the same taste as me. Won't be a problem there. But if i were to go straight to a person and tell him that i don't like his kind of music and he should stop listening to that kind of shit, now i would just be pissing the ass of him. He wounldn't like that now would he.

Ok...so what the hell is my point in this. I'm just trying to say that, IF YOU DON"T KNOW WHAT KIND OF MUSIC I LIKE, THEN DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TELL ME TO CHANGE WHAT I PLAY. CAUSE YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT KIND OF MUSIC I LIKE AND WHAT I LIKE TO EXPRESS, MY MUSIC IS MY EXPRESSION, AND NO MOTHERFUCKER IS GONNA TELL ME WHAT TO PLAY OR WHAT NOT TO PLAY. CAUSE I'M GONNA PLAY WHAT THE FUCKING HELL I WANNA PLAY. SO SHUT YOUR FUCKKING MOUTH AND JUST LISTEN. IF YOU DON't LIKE IT, FUCK OFF BITCH!!!

Phew....that feels so much better. Had to get that out. Bloody bitches think they know what good music is. Tell em to shuff their electronic shit up their ass. I'm stickin to my rock. I'll play what i feel is nice... I'm not gonna listen to some no good two-bit gay motherfucker just because he thinks hes more experienced then us. Experience this you son of a bitch. Well i think i'm pretty much done bloggin for now. Till next time...

2007-01-21T10:27:00.000+08:00

Too long....

Have been abandoning my blog lately. Well maybe that's because i don't have much time on my hands anymore. That's like a obvious reason, most people have the same problem. And i don't blame em.... I understand completely. But i think, my reason could be more than that. Ive found something in my life that has made me happy. It has changed everything for me. I don't feel the same way i've been before since sec school. And the feeling ain't bad. I actually love embracing it. It just feels so bloody good. Especially when i'm sharing it with someone so dear to me. Haizz...its just not the same as before, its even better. Some of yall might know what i'm talking about. And yes darling, if your reading this, this is all about you. Its all because of you, cause you've stolen my heart. I'll never forgive you for this, and i don't plan to. Cause i love it so....

Besides all this, the pressure for A's is starting to kick in. I can feel it in my gut. Which is not good at all.... Not really sure how i'm gonna survive the whole year feeling like this. I mean O's weren't like this. We assoles only felt the pressure like 1 month before it. This is completely different, that i can say. I guess i have to be serious about this year. Must really put in alot of effort if i wanna get into uni. No more fun and games. Just study study study, well i hope not. Cause i can give a 100% guarantee that i would die that way. A very very horrible death. Anyway, if i survived all these 17 years of my life, what's another year. I just have to push myself. Gonna be a long long year. Oh well, where there's a will, there's a way....

2007-01-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

Its nice.....

Feel so good. Well didn't know i really needed this. I thought it would actually hurt me. But it dosen't seem, instead, i'm seeing a whole new side of life now. Its so wonderful. I'm so happy. Everytime i feel sad, i juz remember all good times i spent with you. Nothing can make me sad now, cause your in my life now....I love you...

2007-01-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

Nice and Quiet....

Never really thought i would say this, but its so peaceful now. Just love it. All alone in room, dark, no people, just the light from the computer and my music. No wonder i'm getting more blind everyday. But just love it know...No bloody worries.. Wow. Its damm shiok i swear. I don't mind staying up all night for this. Still got a bit more homework left. No mood to do it now. Maybe do it tomorrow. Got a new principal in school. Seems like a nice guy. He said we're not allowed to criticise others on our blog. HAHAHA!!!... Well as long as i don't mention any names...lol...I can't help it ok... I live on criticism. Nah..not really. It just cracks me up. Anyway the new CCA thing was a success. So happy, finally a CCA we actually have alot of fun in. We even get to show off to others by performing. Haha...that's cool. O yea, and a bonus feature for me, since i'm the only bassist in the the whole crew, i get to learn the cello.WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Its super fun. Always wanted to play a cello or double bass. Now its not only the Red Hot Chili Peppers anymore. Say HELLOOOO Apocalyptica.....HAHA.... Not bad eh, we were freaking worried that the instructor for our new CCA is gonna be an assole. But turns out he's a damm nice guy. He made an arrangement with us. We do what he asks, and he lets us do our thing. Fair offer. On Wednesdays, we help the music society in doing whatever stuff they normally do. Then on fridays we get to do our stuff.... What a cool CCA. I wouldn't mind going for every session. Plus i get to play the cello. Which Bass Crazy bitch wouldn't take this offer....

2007-01-01T18:35:00.000+08:00

Get Your Sexy Name

Not bad eh...Hehe....

2007-01-01T14:10:00.000+08:00

The Day OF Reckoning....

Finally, the day that we have all been waiting for is here. A wonderful feeling it is...

Nah!! Don't give a wack shit ass....HA..waiting anxiously for this day. My ass...SCHOOL'S BACK PEOPLE!!!! Yea, you know the place where all the nightmares are from. The holy haven of chaos and destruction. My one and only paradise. The spring of my fountain. The colour of my rose. The air from which i breath.Un-Metaphorically speaking... okok...too much sarcasm can make a guy sick. Have to stop right here.

Not gonna cut my hair, give it one day. See if any teacher notices... Besides, it isn't thaaaat long. Changed my specs. Got a new GOOFY look. Thinking looking good all the time just dosen't cut it. Maybe give others a chance. Might do some good to my karma. Blah Blah Yada Yada....Boast Boast Boast.... I can't be bothered. Do yall think i really care. Shit no. Especially since this entry is just talking pure unadulterated crap. What more can i say, that's that shit niggaz.....

2006-12-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

Survey......

1. I've come to realize that my ex....
is kind of wierd

2. I am listening to...
Bittersweet Symphony- The Verve

3. I talk...
to people who like talking to me...

4. I love...
everyone of my dearest friends..

5. My best friends....
are around me all the time when i need them

7. I lost...
someone dear to me not quite long ago

8. I hate it when people...
don't keep their word...

9. Love Is...
Hard.....

10. Marriage is...-
even harder....

11. Somewhere, someone is...
waiting for me to do something....

12. I'll always be...
waiting for that person too....

13. I have a crush on...
someone who will never notice it...

14. The last time I cried was
a very very long time ago, most probably sec 2.....

15. My cell phone is...
still working...

16. When I wake up in the morning...
I try not to think about anything.....

17. Before I go to sleep at night...
eat myself inside....

18. Right now I am thinking about...
doing this survey....

19. Babies are...
very cute especially when they are very fat...

20. I get on friendster...
to get this kind of stuff.....

21. Today I....
spoke to some of my best friends...

22. Tonight I will...
Hope.....

23. Tomorrow I will...
try to enjoy myself....

24. I really want...
something i won't be able to get...

25. The person who most likely torepost this is...
honestly, Don't give a shit....

2006-12-28T17:33:00.000+08:00

Internet....

Stupid earthquake...damaged some stupid cable and the stupid Internet became so stupidly slow that it amounted to no stupid connection at all.. Its all STEUUPIIPIIITTT......But who cares...not me...lol. Wait, then why am i saying this??!. Haizz...self-contradiction. Nothing more classic then that. Couldn't really come online partially cause of the tupeeed damaged cable thang, and partially cause of rehearsals. Bloody assoles act as if i cant play shit for the bloody songs. But I'm the only one who's actually getting it right. Why am i not afraid of saying this out loud without caring of people calling me an egotistical son of a bitch. Well, everytime there is a pause in the practice to correct something, it is NEVER because of me. So this is why i dare say this.

Anyway fuck that shit. Have been really playing my bass like mad during these days. Found out so much of interesting stuff about people. Well wouldn't really say interesting la. I mean its kinda sad for them. But it was a hellofa experience though. Wouldn't want to enjoy it. They are juicy stories, but their from your friends. Thinking of how much your friends would have suffered is bad enough. You tend to treasure your life more this way. Feeling that you're so lucky that your life is much simple. And yet you also tend to be more careful about what kind of person your gonna be when your old enough. You never ever want to be someone nasty or someone who ends up enjoying life counting bars on the gate of their jail cell. Well i wouldn't know about that for some of you weirdos out there. But for the vast majority, that's the way it is. Anyway you begin to treasure these friends of yours. Not cause you pity them or anything, but cause you know they need nothing else but your support and love. And whats a better gift for them than showing all these. And it dosn't only make them feel better cause they know someone is always there for them, it also makes you feel much better. Cause you know that someone is appreciating your friendship. Not only for who you are, but also for what you done for them. And by that i mean, listening.

I know i don't sound like my bloody self right know. But hey, i don't give a fuck what yall hypocrital bastards think. So what if i feel this way. Is it all a crime? Everyone eventually feels something. It can happen anytime in your life. It just so happens that this is my time. So let me just go through my time peacefully, until i get back to my old fugly ways. But hopefully i don't. Don't wanna go back to that era. Terrible experience. I feel i've become more wiser... HAHAHA..feel so bloody gay saying that. Oh Shit... But nevermind la. If it means your friends are more meaningful to you. Then i don't mind anymore....

2006-12-23T12:12:00.000+08:00

MMM CHRISTMAS??

Well christmas is coming. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! Holidays just don't seem like they use to anymore. People would be thinking, hooray its the holidays, we're all free from work. Ya right..... MY ASS is more free then i am. But what to do, just have to live with it la. IT IS the holidays anyway. Anyway besides that, might not be able to come online for awhile from tomorrow onwards. So I would like to take this post and dedicate to all my friends.

I would like wish all of yall a VERYREYERYREYREYEYERYERYEEYREREY MERRYRERERYRYRYRYEYYERYERYEEEREYRERYYRYRRRYYYY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O yea....I almost forgot, and also a very HAPPY NEWWWWEWEWEWWEWE YEAREAEAEREARAERERAEARERR...........

Sorry, abit sian now.... quite bored also. Anyway will be going for dinner later at corpthorne hotel. If that's how its spelt la...Never really heard of that hotel until like last month. Figured..How typical of me.... But nevertheless, still gonna enjoy today. Wearing a new long sleeve i bought. Really like the colour though. Thats why i bought it, lol. But anyway i gotta now... So see yall asswides in school....

2006-12-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

UHMMHMM...

Never a day,
Without thoughts,
Deep feelings,
Every moonless night,
Through the sounds of the grass slumber,
Dreams arouse,
Subliminal minds alike,
Finding salvation from dim red roses,
Running through fields of beauty,
Your glimpse through every blink,
Finally,
Peace at last,
Back to where i lay rest,
Vanished worries,
Just you,
Beside my paradise...

2006-12-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

R.I.P

What is life? When did it all start? How did it start? How will it end? When will it end? What's gonna happen when it does end?

So many questions...so many people in this world...so many prodigies for that matter, and no one has an answer? Ha....Of cause not. Who could ever answer these questions. Yes sure, the world was born as a piece of rock from the sun. Evolved and became what it is today. But where did the sun come from? If its from another planet, where did that planet come from?

These are some questions that people have been asking for years, but have never given an accurate answer. Why? Well, they can't. Its not their fault. If nobody's suppose to know the answer, nobody will know. Fate can't be changed. People try changing the appearances of their baby's before their even actually born. But with that comes a risk of autism or retardation. If that happens, can the parents prevent that?

So why am I askin so many questions like this? Why am i even talking about these crap? Honestly, i don't give two hoots about the questions i asked. But somethin happened to me today which made me realized no matter how much you don't give a shit about the world. You can't do the same for the people you care about. Because they will need you and you will need. If not now, someday. And when you lose that person, you will grief. Realizing that you have done ennough for him or her.

Benny, you will be missed dude.It isn't fair you went so soon, but then again, nothing comes fairly in this world. See you in the next life man. Rest In Peace bro.....

2006-12-14T12:07:00.000+08:00

Back!!

Finally, after long time... internet's back online. Feeling so bloody bored without anything to do. Now i can be bored with my internet!! Anyway this time was actually quite useful for me... used it as a period of isolation. Quite peaceful. It would have been better if only i was only all by myself near beach. But noooooooooooooo!!! That won't happen. At least not now..^^

Dammit!! Never do any homework or study yet!!! I'm gonna die la.. And right now i don't have much time and all. Spring cleaning and all... Yes people, I do chores...But i don't think all these days went to waste though. Learned quite alot..of people that is. Took this time to observe. Learned some very interesting stuff about some people. Although no names will be mentioned, i can just say i know this people quite well. Who knows, might even be someone who's reading this right now!! Ok i'm drifting to a lame area right now... Then again i always do. But anyway it was quite fulfilling for the soul la. Sounds super emo and all, i know. But i like it. So live with it you bastards...

Besides all that crap, feeling quite scared about next year. Bloody hell hate all those stupid feelings.... Common test coming soon...Haizz..... Furthermore feelings never leave easy. Especially when they came about by growing internally. Not easy at all. Almost everyday. Hey wait, it is everyday... But what to do. Life's tough. Gotta know how to survive if you wanna live. But right now, i juz live on a few words. Don't give a fuck about the world, the world woudn't give a fuck about you and everyone will be happy. No repercussions. Sounds dumb, but hey!! Waddya know, it works..... So much is not true about that sentence, but that's all i can rely upon to keep surviving... Well at least for now. Hopefully someday, everything would change.

Till that day, i will just fuck the world and all its motherfucking shit. Waiting...hmmm...haha...sounds familiar. Nothing new..haizz....

2006-11-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

Getting Ready........

8th December!!! Major performance at Crossroads, Orchard Towers... Damm scared. Still haven't finish practicing properly yet. I can say we almost have the gist of the songs, but that's not good enough. At least not for a concert. Perfection, Perfecto, Parfet... ok i just made up the last word..but still sounds good^^. I think that's actually some kinda food, ahhh well, back to the point. I'm not really scared for playin my guitar. For me, its all somewhat there. But I'm scared cause I'll have to duet with my singer on a song by trivium. I mean WHAT THE HELL?!?!?... Everyone single person who knows me well enough would know that i can't sing for nutzz.... How the hell am i gonna duet?!?!?? Well i guess i just have to start practicing. 2 more weeks. Very very very short time. Shit...

Other than that I'm fine la..lol... Went to the chinaboy's house to jam today. Everybody's just too poor to pay for a jamming room. So, a nice sub would his house. Since he has a mixer which can support up to 4 instruments. Thank god for that. At least he didn't waste 400 bucks for nothing. OK that's a contradiction, how the hell can i say 'waste' and 'for nothing' in the same sentence. I'm contradicting myself.

Lately, I've been trying to correct myself alot. Not only verbally, but also psychologically and socially. Trying to be more careful in life. I know...not the Forest yall know... But what can i say. I'm changing. I think I've finally reached puberty. WEE...Can't wait to see what happens next. Maybe I'll visit Paris.....

2006-11-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

BASH...

Had the bash yesterday..couldnt update blog yesterday coz by the time i came home, i knocked out on my bed. Mcflea performed yesterday. I'm not afraid to say that it was quite good. I mean thats purely adapted from the responses of the audience. Well that was an accomplishment. No matter how small the performance is, still have to give everything we got for it. Something i learned from 4 yrs of being st pat's band. Whatever we do, do the best we can.People looked great yesterday. All lookimg sexy and all. Gayne wearing some satin dress, looked really good on her. Fides came with ablack top and some dangly earrings, looking sexay!! These were some of the photos we took. There were still more but haven't gotten them yet.

Took this photo in the toilet...seriously, don't ask.....

You can only guess where this was taken.....

The next few were taken backstage behind curtains. These were done a few minutes before our performance. So it was all kinda dumb, with the posing and all...haha...

Our drummer became kinda mad before the performance... Couldn't calm him down. Think he was like on weed or something....

A little innocent posing with the guitar god...

Cool photos.....
Just some pure unadulterated shredding on the bass....

O, just a close up of me doing the shredding....

Tried looking sexy, wahaha waddaya know?!?!..it worked!!

Bloody emo photo we took. This was right before the curtains were drawn....

That's all the pics i have so far. I'm trying to reach the official cameraman who took a hell lot of photod for us. Well, progress report: still trying....

2006-11-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

Sian Argh!!!

Had school the whole bloody day today. Freaking sian....Moreover everything was H2 subjects. What could be worst?? Well..having th exact same thing happen to you everyday of your life. If that's the case, i would give a maybe a max of 2 months before you actually kill yourself, come back and kill yourself again. HISTORY SUCKS!!! IT ALWAYS HAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE....

Geography another headache sia....No i mean literally...I had a fucking irritating headache during geog. Couldn't wear my specs. The moment i put it on, my eyes would pop out.That hurt la....ok lets see....what else happened today? hmm....

Don't know. I don't think anything significant other then history eating our hearts out. Oops, i mean ripping it part by part. Guess what, tomorrow there's another 4 bloody hours of history. WOOOOO!!!! Just can't wait....

2006-11-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

OMG!!

Just finished jamming practice for the jc1 bash. I could say we're pretty much ready for the concert. Now just have to run through the whole thing in order at least once. Make sure we don't kok up on the day itself. Finger so bloody pain now. Hopefully can last until friday. Then i cant be bothered if it drops off. Won't have anymore good use for it anyway. Feeling luggy sian then yesterday sia... The fucking feeling's getting worst. Bloody hell.... Thought it was getting better. Fuck. Ahh who the hell cares... even if i tell anyone they wouldn't understand unless they go through it themselves. Current life status: Fucked.

Stupid crap pieces of motherfuckin asses...Ai dammit. Pardon my french...feeling so bloody moody now.Need some bloody heavy metal now...Some thrash black death hardcore apocalyptic speed hell metal would do. This sucks...Fuck it...

2006-11-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

Fun.....

Had a party at roshan's house yesterday. Fun sia....got abit high. Too much Jim Bean.Went to meet Jacq and Fi at bugis to watch step up. Nice movie, wish i can dance like that man. Pamela should really really watch that movie. She'll love it,to the max!! The movie finished about 2.30pm. Still had alot! of time before the BBQ actually started. We just waited around,went to PS collect something. Den went to citylink to chill for awhile. Waited for Gayne and Alvin. Gayne t0old us about some road trip she had around Singapore just for council. Its council, so i never asked much. But i shouldn't say anything bad about it. She told me she really loves council. So i guess i respect that. lol.....

Anyway after everyone finally met up, went to roshan's house. Went there so bloody early. I forgot about 'Indian Timing'. 6pm means 7.30pm. Don't ask. That's the way it is. Took a long walk there from Kembangan MRT. Met reuben n navin on the way. Sitting there looking so bloody drunk even though they just had one can each.O.o""

Stupid thing happened sia. I was walking back to them after settling down in roshan's house, making sure they didn't finish all the beer. Saw a bloody police car on the way. Wanted to warn them but was too late. Lucky the police only asked them to stop drinking in front of a car. Never asked their ID. If they did, Reuben would be dead right now....Anyway after all that commotion was over, i waited with the rest of the beer outside the house until roshan's father left. Everything start around 8. But the real fun only started around 9+. When Jimmy, Mervin and Rappy came. Rasprit was already super high before coming to roshan's house. He only became worst. He was freaking funny la. Everyone was scared, never saw him smile before. Especially Sue...haha....

Jacq, Fi and Gayne left first. Alvin brought jacq home. Apparently she was drunk. HAHAHA!! I left with the rest around 11. Was already high at that time. Felt like just lying down and sleeping in the bus.Sianzz......

Went home and just went to bed. Never said a word to my parents, they could find out anything from the smell. Woke up freaking 6am today. Had to go for church prac. Head was killing me. Couldn't think straight at all. Came back home around 1pm and went straight to bed. Didn't wake up until someone called me at 6.30 i think. then here i am now,writing this...Goin to my friends house later to help him in science for awhile. His last o lvl exam tomorrow. He's freaking happy. Well i gonna eat dinner now. Hopefully, if i can without puking.....Chow.....

2006-11-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!!

Gonna get drunk tomorrow...hopefully not sia. I will be chased out of my house. Damm, no freedom. I just wish i live in my own apartment. So much better...Can do anything i want. Anyway finally a day i can properly go out. So there is some benefit after all. Tired, but can't sleep. Over-exhaustion i think. Dammit, hate this bloody feeling....

2006-11-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

Oh Man....

Went for the first holiday lesson today. It just had to be geography. we're sooo lucky. I mean my whole class loves geography. Its soooo bloody interesting. Who woudn't love learning about our environment, and about the current fertility rates each bloody country has.Woohoo!! Ok, enough with the sarcasm. I was so bloody jealous today. Fides went to eat sushi. Without me!! Its been such a long time since i ate sushi. i'm so gona eat sushi tomorrow.

Ok besides that, this saturday its confirm we're gonna watch step up and go for a bbq at the singh's house. And what's fucked up about it, well, my parents gave me a bloody curfew. I'm supposed to back by 12am. I mean what the fuck. I think i'm old enough to know how the fuck to keep myself save. I don't really need anyone to worry about where i go or what i do. But what can i say, they're parents. Its like their full-time job to worry . What else can i say.....

Nevertheless, still looking forward for it. At least i have a day to totally unwind. Thought this holidays would be work-free for me. Apparently there's no such thing as free time in my life anymore. Guess i just have to get use to this kinda living. got a feeling i'm gonna experience this much more frequently next year, with the A lvls and all. Haizz...kinda scary when i think about it. Oh well, off to do more productive things....chow...

2006-11-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

Your Eyes Should Be Gray

Your eyes reflect: Intensity and drive

What's hidden behind your eyes: A sensitive soul

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

2006-11-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

Bloody Hell.....

Finally its save to say that PW is over. And i really mean it this time. I thought after the stupid oral presentation everything was over. But NOOOOOOOOOO...... must still come back to school to hand in the stupid GPF(group project file). Fucking irritating i swear. Anyway since its over today, i shouldn't complain about i anymore. Now what to do for school?? Well lets see....
1. Practice the songs we're gonna play for the JC1 bash.
2. Start Studying...Have to start very soon, or i'm dead next year.
3. Save money, must stop spending on stupid junk.
4. lol, dunno what else.....

I think thats about it. Maybe there's more but i just cat remeber it right now. Aiya, itll be there when it has to be la.Oh ya, most importantly...go on a diet.. I'm bloody fat sia...must lose the tummy....

2006-11-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN!!

Got a new skin people... How yall like it. Its like a whole new look for me. Actually i'd rather just stick to pure black or white. More of my kinda colour. But trying out green la. I'll see in a few days if i really cannot take, ill just go back to my usual rebellious black type of stuff. I think i should call it my own introversion. lol...That just sounds stupid.

Now since i just redid my blog, back to being my same old boring self again. With nothing better to do. Don't feel like playing guitar today. Fucking migraine killing me since morning. Haven't got the full blown attack i usually get yet. But something's telling me its gonna be damm soon. I better go take my pills before any shit happens again. Not that i cant take it la, its just that why the fuck am I having all these headaches. What the hell did i do to deserve all this? I mean it just suddenly started one day. Moreover it was during my bloody promos. What could be worst, oh yea i forgot..Having the bloody headache during the exam!!

Hopefully itll fade away as quick as it came to me..Getting less and less of it these days. So hopefully its going away....

2006-11-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

ERR...

Again bored..... nothing much to do in life now. But rather just stare into blank space. Hoping for something stupid to happen, at least there would be something interesting in the world. Not the boring everyday morning, afternoon, evening and night. Everyday just goes by like water...and i don't mean the speed....ok..at this point in time i have no idea what the fuck i'm talking about. Seriously...i'm feeling so bloody bored. Don't even know what to wright. I find myself wasting time and current. Why the hell am i talking so much rubbish and still complaining about it?
Well, one reason would be cause i'm currently listening to James Morrison's (you give me something)...so waiting for the song to finish.

Now gonna do something more useful with my life..bye blog...

2006-11-12T12:20:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are Beef

You're big, burly, and maybe even a little stinky. And no one's going to come between you and a good steak.
And you've probably never met a vegetable you like, unless fries and ketchup count.

What Kind of Meat Are You?

Your Taste in Music:

90's Hip Hop: Highest Influence
90's Rock: Highest Influence
Country: Highest Influence
Heavy Metal: Highest Influence
Hip Hop: Highest Influence

How's Your Taste in Music?

2006-11-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

Another Stupid Survey

have u been drinking?
for past 2 weeks..no..but this coming saturday yes...

have u been smoking?
err.no....

who are u thinking of right now?
Fides..tokin to her rite now...

are u jealous of anyone? who?
nop...cant be botheres...

do u think someone is thinkin about?
dunno..mayb...

3 wordz to decribe u:
1. Facinating
2extravagant
3beautiful...

2 wordz to decribe ur besti:
fun bastard...
idiot..

1 word to describe asian families:
traditional...(hate it)

how do u know the person who did this before u?
SRJC..best skl in the world..

how do u feel about the person who did this beforeu?
lazy bum..

do u like your hairstyle?
ermmm..i guess its alrite..

current status?
single.

how would u react if u saw your bf/gf flirting with urbesti?
will oni noe at the situation itself..dun plan for all this..

ever broken up?
yea..once...

ever been dumped?
does migrating to a different country count as being dumped?

have u ever made out wif ur besti?
oh god if i did...i wudnt be straight anymore...

do u think someone is hating u right now?
most probably yea....

do u wear perfume?
only aramis for men....$$120 per bottle...

do u think u are vain?
i wear mens perfume..duh!!

what do u think of this bulletin?
stupid hellaofawasteoftime thingy....

5 few of ur trademarkz?
1. trees....
2.black..
3.Sen Lin(chinese)
4.Sadist..
5.The bassist (to my other frens..)

2006-11-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

Wondering...

It has been wierd lately. Complications over complications. As yall can see i've got nothing better to do in life then just surveys. The last 4 previous posts..^^. What to do, kinda bored. Actually not really nothing to do la..got alot..just lazy.Right now discussing about monday outing with my friends. At the same time practicing songs for JC1 bash performance. AT the same time listening to songs. AT THE same time, writing in this blog. So you see, multi-tasking has becoming a part of my life. Not saying that its bad or anything. Just pointing it out. Mastered the art since sec 2. Didn't have a choice then. CCA was very demanding. Especially when ur in St. Pats Military Band. Haizz..Miss those days. Oh well, these days are fun as well.

Got good friends. That's enough for me. Gotta go fully prac my bass now. Peace out...

2006-11-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 120

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2006-11-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect

Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.
You have the confidence to make the first move.
And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.
Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!

Are You a Good Kisser?

2006-11-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen
Or lend a shoulder to cry on
You're there through thick and thin
Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

2006-11-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

You Are a "Wink"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

2006-11-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

SURVEY TIME!!

1. when is your biddaeey?
10 july..duh...

2. what is your favorite color?
black..just pure black

3. who is in your mind now?
someone hus name cant be mentioned..

4. are u now in love with someone?
haizz....

5. do u have a girlfriend/boyfriend now?
nop..

6. which type of person r u?
influential..

7. what r u of thinking now?
suppose to be writing lyrics for my fren..so im thinking abt tt...

8. do u like music?
I live on it...

9. what type of girlfriend/boyfriend do u want?
dunno...nvr really thought of it yet.....

10. who made u feel happy today?
errr...more of what..it was my guitar...

11. is today a perfect day for u?
go n die la...

12. your dream age?
0..no worries at this time..

13. your pet's name?
my late pets name....dooby

14. what do you want right now?
so many that i cant even mention some of em...

15. who has a great look in your class?
me...

16. who has the best smile?
dunno eh...

17. who has a cute voice?
pamela...she sounds like a 7 yr old....

18. what is your biggest fear?
BUGSS!!!

19. what do u love the most?
music..only thing which calms me down n gets my mind of things...

20. what are u waiting for?
courage and the perfect time....

2006-11-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

Haiz...

Bored like siao....don;t know what to do. Feeling depressed, tired, sick, lazy. Emo crap coming out again...aiyoh...sibeh sian bodoh....Nothing much to do anyway now. Currently listening to Warriors of the World United by Manowar. THUS, i feel like crapping now. CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP. Ok thats enough crapping for today. I know im bloody lame now...cant help it..boredom.

Anyway looking forward for monday. Gonna watch movie with my class. Convenant and DOA. Love the game and also saw the trailer for covenant. My kinda movie. Until then.
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DIE MOTHERFUCKERS DIE!!!!!

2006-11-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

Just Hate It.....

Isn't it just so goddam fucking irritating when someone breaks thier promise. You've been expecting a good response for such a long time, then suddenly one day the words 'since when did i say that' comes out. At that point you just feel so bloody irritated. Thinking how could someone so daringly deny what they had said before. What's worst is that you know thier doing it on purpose. It's all just an act cause their just not ready to sacrifice.

Whoa.. Suddenly what bothers you all comes out, you get out of hand, start doing stupid things that you know would leave a permanent scar. But you don't care. You just don't give a fuck anymore. This is what happens when you don't have control over your own feelings. It just shows how bloody immature you are. If you can't even a bloody situation like this, how the hell are you gonna survive later in life??

Don't be stupid and start cutting yourself just because some bitch broke their promise. Just get over it. That's life, gotta face it as it is. A friend made me realize this today. Even though it was in my head, i was just too blinded to figure it out myself.

Life goes on. No use crying over spilled milk. Even if the milk is of top quality, its still milk. Get the picture. Whenever there is a situation like this, just remember. The one who deny's is really the immature one as they can't keep a simple promise they made. Do not sink to their level. It will only reflect you and no one else....

2006-11-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

Shit Man....

Dammit, PW tomorrow...nervous, scared, relieved, happy, sad...don't know what to feel sia. All so mixed up, so confusing. I just keep telling myself, one more day one more day. But today just seems to go by so god damm slow. I hate this feeling. Damm irritating, stops me from enjoying anything i'm doing. Aiya...anyway one day left for this bloody headache to finish. Then, everything is GONE!!!! but i'll still have to study sia. In a damm big danger zone now. If i don't buck up during the holidays, i'm so gonna die next year. have to study....

Besides all those academic complications going now, still missing someone so bloody desperately. Wonder how its gonna be once the 'real' holidays arrive. I think i'm gonna rot in pieces. One by one. Preferably the head 1st. Since everything is only up there. But nevertheless, i think the day i tell her everything is gonna come so bloody soon. I don't want it to come soon. Its only gonna make my miserable life even more miserable then it already is. Shit... But there will be one day you will know baby..Trust me.

This is song i finally found after a long time. Although its not from the orginal singers, i find this cover much nicer . Its called mad world, by Gary Jules. Its slow, but very very nice.

2006-11-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

PW.

Just had my Tamil A lvls yesterday. I would say it wasn't too bad la. Hopefully, and praying hard that i can get at least an E. So don't ever have to take tamil again in my life. How shiiookkkkk would that be.... Anyway musn't be too happy yet. Still got one more exam to go before this year ends. Project Work on Monday. And my group hasn't even practiced the speech together yet. As always, last minute, we're gonna do it on sunday. Woopdidoooo....That's gonna help, well at least hopefully..

Suppose to be doing the rest of my InR now. But i'm just so bloody lazy....and besides, i don't understand half the fucking things the stupid lee suan wrote on my bloody paper...Can anyone explain to me this question..(What is the basis of choice of ideas to include in the project?)...What fucking basis shit is she talking about sia.....How the hell are we gonna know what stupid question she's asking if she just comes up with a question out of nowhere. Thank god she's leaving next year. The new batch won't have to suffer..

Gonna Practice my bass now...Since there's so much of time to waste...Peace out.

2006-11-02T13:37:00.000+08:00

Finally...

Phew...my new blog updationarism is finally over.. please inform me of anything you guys find im missing. Cause i have no idea..lol...Anyway how you guys like it? Wanted to go with some candle burning skin, but i didn't like the idea of it being in oe corner of the screen. So i rather have a full screen one, looks much nicer. Besides, i was getting kinda sick of the old gay-ish mushroom head thingy. Prefered a darker theme.

Anyway today was a special day. I call it my personal grooming day. 1st of all, i got a new blog skin and edited everythin. Then went to cut my hair. YUPZZ. I asked the lady to cut a tail for me, ended up cutting a fin. Well im alright with it,just that i cant gel that part to school. Now i look like some punkster. Came home and cut alll my nails....lol..Yall didn't have to know that. Also shaved, well i woudn't really say clean cause itll grow back by tonight. So there's not much of a point. So you see, basically i cleaned myself up today. And it has nothing to do with my A level MT exams being tomorrow i swear. No really.... I mean it. Just wanted to do everythin today.LOL. Don't know why.

So now done with everything, just have to make sure i can remember all my tamil stuff later. Then my day is accomplished. Sounds so bloody easy, but noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo........ its not...sianzzzzzzz....

2006-11-02T10:58:00.000+08:00

under construction...

please be patient..thank you...

2006-10-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

MMM..

Don't know what has happened to me. Got into a massive bloodshed yeaterday. Juz needed the feeling. Sadistic, painful, messy....yet it seems nothing to me. All my thoughts fall into apathy. No feeling whatsoever. How wonderful, just imagine a world with no feelings. Everyone was so straight, no thoughts of sadness,anger,love,hatred,jealousy,happiness,guilt. Just eclecticistic forces streaming through the viens of each and every individual. What a fantasy. If only that was true, there wouldn't be any hurt in this world. Its much better than having magic. But its no use living in this world of fantasy anymore. Eventually the truth must be faced. No one can hide from it. Even if they die before they do, they would die knowing it. Nobody can run from it.

Thinking about this makes me feel like a person with major problems to deal with. But i don't pity myself. That's just being fucking stupid. Just think about it, there are many other people in this world who face much bigger problems than me. And they don't even have a bloody blog to write it down on. All they have is thier heart where they store all thier worries. That's very hard. Cause one the days, would be thier last to worry on. Its so sad.

Just as musicians express thier feelings through thier music, i think my music would break me down. Well it already has even without me playing music. So what's the point of using music as a path anymore. It does help me i have to admit. But to what degree. There is only so much i can express, until my fingers bleed with my guitar on my shoulders. Like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me. Just seeing the blood slowly seeping out of my finger nails, smoothly flowing down my fingers and arms. Blood thick and red, so tempting yet so dangerous. The viens pulsating even more fluid, time and time again. Feel your heart slowly beating away drip by drip. Taste so rich; ruby's. No misconception brought about by the feeling of slow death. If only i could slowly bleed my life away like this. Now that would be a real fantasy for me.....

2006-10-25T19:32:00.001+08:00

WOOTT!!!!

I MADE IT TO J2!!!!!!!!..Thank god, i was so damm bloody scared la...Tossing and turning the night before. Kept thinking about my results, if i was promoted or retained. Well it was a big relieve for me when i asked my teacher. Could see that my classmates were happy for me. Hell, i was freakin happy for myself. Nevertheless, its a blessing to have these kinda friends. But we were still very worried for two people who didn't make it. They were asked to leave. What could be worst. And i'm not being sarcastic here. i really feel for those dudes. One i know since a very young, the other still a good friend of mine. Well hope they get what they want. If there was anything i could do to help them, believe me i would. But sad enough i cant.

Anyway after the whole happy part of the day had floated away slowly, we had to listen to THE kok talk. Aight i might admit it wasn't that bad, seeing the fact that i was thinking about other stuff and suffering from tremendous head-splitting, vein-bursting, eyeball-popping headaches. And i'm not exaggerating.

Later, i just had to go through something which bloody hell spoiled my day even further. My CCA kakis were asking me and the chinaboy to go for CCA. But we already explained to the we were gonna see the VP to discuss about the new CCA we were creating. So since we had some time left, we decided to just pop in for awhile. I wouldn't even say ten minutes, we had more important stuff to attend to. Later in the evening, some fella called me up and asked me if i had stolen any guitar strings from the god damm cupboard. Ok there was two freakin big problems with this theory. Firstly, I didn't where the fuck the bloody the strings were in the bloody place. See it was in a new room so i didn't know shit about it. Heck, i didnt know where the bloody room was. The second thing was that i was in the fucking room for barely ten minutes, and these motherfuckers still dare ask me if i took any strings. Bloody hell the stupid room was so fucking filled with people la. If i would have somehow opened a cupboard or drawer to take something, someone should have seen me right?????

Anyway that's not the point. Asking me is fine, cause they would have to confirm somehow. But repeatedly askin only me if i had taken it and not anyone else is just not right. In others words, thier trying to delibrately put the fucking blame on me and try to make me admit it. They even said thier gonna suspect the fella i was sitting next to in the room...That's like totally WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? Come on man, even if i did take it, i wouldn't sink so low as to let someone else take the blame for me. I have my own dignity. What the fuck do you guys take me for??

I'm freaking pissed over this matter. I might be jocial and friendly most of the time, but don't come and fucking give me this crap of blaming people without even any proper evidence. I don't play that game. So yall better not play with me with all this shit. Cause i don't play it back fair, period....

2006-10-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY!!!!

Woke up bright and early again today... yea what else is new. Brought my brother to church for catechism class. Slept in the auditorium sia, damm quiet and peaceful. Went back home and got ready to go out again. Went to meet my PW group to do PW...lol...DUH!! Went all the way to parkway to meet them.

Waited there like some bloody ass for half an hour. Always wanted to go late, but always end up reaching damm early..shitzzz.....Anyway we went to oli's house, met pam there. Freakin big house and freakin shiok environment with 7 freakin big swimming pools with a freakin good view and freakin shiok wind la.....In total, it was just freakin shiok!!! She's damm bloody rich i swear. She had 2 dogs, one fatfat, i think its name was odi or something. Pam was super scared at 1st, but later got better and started callin it names like greedy and fat and all. But most of the time screaming when the dogs jumped.

Roshan was another idiot...Here's his traumatizing story. He went outside to take out his socks cause pam asked him to. No one ever goes against her.....The idiot went inside the stairway, dunno why, and the door locked behind him...He coudn't get out cause it was auto-lock(security purposes) So he went down every floor from the 8th and tried all the doors. At last got out at the 1st floor. When he went out, he coudn't get in. So he was stuck and he said he went to ask the guards some shit and all...started trying to press buttons all over. After awhile we realized that idiot was missing la..so i got the card key(cool key) and went down to find him outside the door trying to press some stupid combination like some bloody assole. It was the funniest picture you could imagine la. After getting him back up, he talked about it all day long. Guess it was damm traumatizing for him....I had my share of freakin hellaofalot of laughs. Bloody hell today was shi0k la..

Then before leaving, me and roshan had a quick chill near the poolside, the bloody wind was bloody shiok...bloody shiok place sia..i wish lived there....

2006-10-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

Another Day Passes

Woke up quite early today.Dunno why. Took a damm cold shower, I died la but it was so shiok. Woke me right up. Went to do the rest of my PW. This bloody PW is the worst, most irritating thing i ever done in my life i swear. Especially with the world's most fucked up teacher. OOOHH...everytime i even think about her, something makes me wanna tear someones head off...ERRR....Anyway i don't wanna spoil my saturday thinking about some no good bitchy ass piece of shit.

Listening to some chinese song now..Dunno the name, but it has one very nice bass solo. Gonna jam that with yi chen one of these days. Quite surprising, never really heard a chinese song with that kind of solo before. Arms freakin pain now sia. Dunno what the hell i did...Aches all over. Woke up just now, felt like someone had tortured me the night before.

I would say i'm feeling better though...I think i'm finally learning to except life as it is. What comes will come,what goes will go, what happens will happen. No doubt in that. Its just how we handle the situations that vary. That affects the outcome. Hoping is not enough, if we want something badly, we have to go all the way to make sure we get it no matter what. In the end, what matters is that we get what we wanted. There would be repercussions though. Might not be for the person himself, but for someone else who could have been indirectly affected. Well thats the sadest case. That person will just have to live gratefully with what they have. These people would be blessed though. To live through life knowing what you want but not getting it is much harder than it sounds. They should be rewarded. They have the will to carry on no matter what. For this, i sincerely respect these people. They have an aspect in life that i wish i'm strong enough to have.....

2006-10-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

Good News

Guess what people...I PASSED MY TAMIL!!!!!!!!!!...shocking news right? Ya i know. I was also damm shocked la. For those who think that this is no big deal, well it is to me la. You see, the thing is i never really passed tamil from secondary 1. So i took B language from sec 3. Then now, i'm taking normal tamil, and i passed it. So you see, this is a fucking long-winded explanation but who cares. I PASSED!!!...

Anyway, another good news today. I think i'm starting to feel much better now. Well at least i hope that's what i'm feeling. Cause you see, I reallized that what i actually wanted wanted had actaully come true. Well, maybe not like i how had expected. Nevertheless, it is still working. My heart still aches though, but i know that something good is coming out from it.I coudn't have done a better job myself. That's enough for me. I hope i get better, much sooner..... At least i would be peace for the holidays. Don't have to die too early. I guess my light is becoming better. Well, that's what i hope. Life goes on.......

2006-10-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

You scored as Stoner. Hahah! You stupid druggie!

Stoner

80%

Punk

67%

Hot

67%

"Ghetto"

60%

Emo Kid

47%

Goth

47%

Prep

27%

Jock

27%

Geek/Nerd

20%

Loner

20%

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2006-10-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

Shishh...

Another sian day for another sian life.....It just dosen't seem to end. Well i wish it does, very very soon. Nothing really happy to blog about. I find that i'm not really the happy person i used to be. So much of problems.... Dosen't really add up to happy thoughts....Well at least i feel so much better when i'm together with my friends..They have this kind of effect that makes you not want to care about anything but having fun. At this moment of time, I cherish this type of feeling so....

On the contrary, there's always this little weight in my chest, pulling me down further and further away as the days go by. I feel that it is only getting worst. The boulder on my shoulder is getting heavier and harder to hold. I feel like my neck is breaking. I wonder if i should just give up, or should i just try to live up to the expections of the world. Not easy....People think they have so much of problems, and i believe them. But they think the outspoken ones are so problem-free.... In actual fact, they are dying a slow painful death inside. One muscle tearing away from another so slowly, the pain is eternal. With noone to turn to, talk to or even look at.

What can they do.... Nothing. They can't do nothing. What do you expect them to do. They've already lost so much, they've got nothing better to lose. Ahah....u see, i feel i'm somewhat similar to them. but only, i've got something to lose. I cannot afford that cause its so important to me. Its killin me inside but thats what i practically live on....Well, i cant do anything about it, for now at least. Hopefully one day...yea...Till then ill just sit my drunk ass on that fuckin railway and just watch the clouds go by. Cause thats all i can do right now.

2006-10-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

FUCK MAN!!!!

Friday was one of the worst fuckiest day i had in my life man....aiyoh...ok, at least it started alright in the morning. BUT, later in the afternoon, became worst..never seemed to get better.dammit.It all started because of one fucking short, fucked up piece of muthafuckin ass excuse for a stupid fuckidy teacher called GAN LEE SUAN!!
OOHH boy, juz tellin the name makes me wanna rip someones head of...That bloody short fuck waited for every group to hand in their written report,,,buuuuutt only my group got special treatment. She said she wouldn't wait any longer for our group to hand in the papers. And all we had left was to just print out in colour. Well you know what. FUCK YOU BITCH!!!! Yea, you can suck my cock for all i care u bloody dwarf fuck. I wound't piss on fire to save ur goddam life bitch..yea heard that..If your reading this, i am NOT SORRY at all...Cause i mean every single thing i say here....So don't you dare even expect an attempt of an apology from me. Cause by god's will you wund't get it even if the world depended on it.

Phew!! that shit helped...had to just get it all out...found no other way than my blog. Sorry for all the people i deeply offended...i coudn't tell this to anyone's face, so i just had to find another way to do it. That bloody gan can really do damage man. I mean she even made my VERY INNOCENT, i repeat ,innocent friends speak vulgarities...
I guess she that kind of natural ability in her..oh well, who can blame her...its gan..

Anyway, i would specially like to mentione a few significant people in my blog today. THEY ARE:::::: Fides, Jonny, Jacq, Gayne..... I would just like to say that my group and I are very very..and i mean very grateful for all ya help..Thanks alot guys, we woudn't have been able to finish our WR without your help. So again, thanks for all your help. I'm sure im speaking on behalf my group when I say this. Signin off....

2006-10-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

NO MORE....

I finally found somethin to ease the pain inside. I bite the inside of my mouth till blood gushes out...the pain inflicted causes me to stop thinking about everything around. I embrace this pain. I drown into my own world where nothing exists. No man, no animal, and especially no feelings. All into a black hole drawn from within myself. Self-inflicted mortal wounds, so bloody, so terrible, so destructive...
Never within my own soul will i ever feel anything from this. I devour the bread that i seek within my own. No more thoughts, no more feelings, no more memories. Just the present day as it stands... This i what i do to myself when i feel like shit. I discovered this only yesterday.

I found out the truth about something i didnt wish to know about. It coudn't be helped. It was right in front of me,literally. If only i can let it all out here. But i can't. If i did, it would only mean more problems..which i don't think would be easy to solve at all. Especially loking at the situation. Damm big contradition isnt it. Started a blog to express all my feelings, yet, i can't even give a clue about this. What's the point. Even if i did, it wouldn't help at all. Besides, not quite ready to go public yet. Maybe one day, but certainly not now.....

Anyway yesterday had some CCA exchange program called 'palette'.... I found it a damm big waste of time. Naufal, me and the chinaboy just slacked the whole goddam way....Nothin to do..Well we learnt some taekwondo skills(self-defence only)...Oh yea, we also performed Who's David by Busted as McFlee to the rockclimbing and taekwondo dudes...well that was quite fun. The rest was just plain old boring. After the whole thing, we had photo taking...dumbest phototaking i ever had in my life. What a place to choose for a class photo, the track...O.o"""Anyway, since that shitty day was over, had nothing else to do..just went back home and slept for awhile before waking up to do the GODDAMMMMM PW!!!! How i wish pw would finish fast.. Getting sick and tired of it...

2006-10-10T10:11:00.000+08:00

SIAN EH.....

Ok 1st things 1st.. one of my friends has told me that i use too much vulgar laguage, she has advised me to stop using so much...well this i what i can tell her...sorry dear, for using so much to offend you...its just that its kinda hard to stop after using it as a normal vocabular function since primary 3....but nevermind ill try limiting myself i promise...

Since thats over...By right, im suppose to be in school now doing some extra MOE mother tougue exam thingy. But im not, so what....I find the whole thing a really dumb idea..you see, this exam was introduced by the MOE...MT students are supppose to do an 'ANCHOR EXAM' of the original A lvls...but the thing is, we won't be able to know how we faired..not even of we passed or failed, so can i ask yall something..What's the bloody point?!?!?!? Its a freaking big waste of time la..Especially when i can wake up late and not go to school..

Speaking about school, i thought that after exams it would all be over at least for a little while. BUT, NOOOOOOO......its not...its worst!!! Got this CCA shit and all going on, i guess there is no such thing as holiday in jc. Well i shoudn't complain. I chose to go jc, so i might as well make the best out of it as much as i can. Complaining would only waste precious studying time. Yup, (STUDYING TIME). From the new year onwards, hopin that i make it to j2, i will start getting ready for A's... think of it as an early new years resolution. I don't plan to waste 2 years of my life for nothing. See, i got it all figured out. After uni, i would go on ahead to pursue a degree in music.(My Dream). But not really sure where yet. Maybe Griffith in Auzzi. Don't know. Ill see it when the time comes...Anyway im gonna practice my bass now, so peace out homies.....

2006-10-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

OH WELL.....

Just woke up. Don't know why so early. Coudn't sleep la......
I guess another day total uninterrupted sian-ness for me again..haha..kinda used to it anyway. Later maybe gonna gte some tamil compo book from my friend to copy for homework. YES!!! You heard me right...HOMEWORK!!!!! i mean what the hell, seriously la..its after promos for all you dumbasses out there!!! Once properly translated, it means NO HOMEWORK . Aiya anyway this is jc. So i guess the meaning for everythin has somewhat changed for the worst. No use crying over spilled milk anyway.. Speaking of milk, just realized ive not drank my daily dose of coffee yet..nope. This is not good. I think thats why i feel like my brains gonna explode or something. Anyway i still have to wait for my mom to wake up, coz she start saying i messed uped the kitchen.....blah blah blah....yada yada yada..... I just listen, don't really give a damn. If i did, i woudn't be here now..would be somewhere in IMH.

HAH. From now on i feel like putting in a song dedication on my blog. so every week, lyrics of the weeks favourit-est song would be posted. This is just somethin i wanna do coz you know why??? I GOT NOTHING BETTER TO DO....yup thas it... So todays most favouritestestegest song will be....

Walking On The Sun-Smashmouth

It ain't no joke I'd like to buy the world a toke
And teach the world to sing in perfect harmony
And teach the world to snuff the fires and the liars
Hey I know it's just a song but it's spice for the recipe
This is a love attack I know it went out but it's back.
It's just like any fad it retracts before impact
And just like fashion it's a passion for the with it and hip
If you got the goods they'll come and buy it just to stay in the clique

[Chorus:]
So don't delay act now supplies are running out
Allow if you're still alive six to eight years to arrive
And if you follow there may be a tomorrow
But if the offer is shun you might as well be walkin' on the sun

Twenty-five years ago they spoke out and they broke out
Of recession and oppression and together they toked
And they folked out with guitars around a bonfire
Just singin' and clappin' man what the hell happened
Then some were spellbound some were hellbound
Some they fell down and some got back up and
Fought back 'gainst the melt down
And their kids were hippie chicks all hypocrites
Because fashion is smashin' the true meaning of it
[Repeat Chorus]

It ain't no joke when a mama's handkerchief is soaked
With her tears because her baby's life has been revoked
The bond is broke up so choke up and focus on the close up
Mr. Wizard can't perform no godlike hocus-pocus
So don't sit back kick back and watch the world get bushwhacked
News at 10:00 your neighborhood is under attack
Put away the crack before the crack puts you away
You need to be there when your baby's old enough to relate
[Repeat Chorus]

2006-10-07T15:32:00.000+08:00

o_O Guy Confessions O_o
[x] I have watched.......
[ ] I have played/cheated on a girl
[x] Ive slept naked
[x] I play video games
[x] I wear boxers to bed
[ ] Ive thrown rocks @ a girls window
[x] Ive drank because I felt like it
[x] I still beat my buddies up
[ ] Of course they never beat me up
[i wish ] I drive a truck/SUV
[x] My friends and I make fun of each other...alot
[ ] I drive some type of car
[x] I have a job--->official assole
[ ] I currently have a girlfriend
[ ] My girlfriend is better than yours
[x] I think about girls/my girl
[x] Girls are complicated, to the MAX degree
[x] Im .......... friendly? hell yea i am
[ ] Ive forgotten to return a phone call to a girl...or a few
[x] Not all guys are the same Im one of the different ones
[x] Id do anything for my girl/a girl
[ ] I tend to be shy around girls
[ ] I act like an ass on purpose-->its natural for me
[ ] I've been flashed before
[x] Ive seen the Rocky Horror picture show
[x] I play hard to get
[ ] I aspire to one day become like the guys in Old School
[ ] Im not in love
[ ] Ive honked at a girl going down the road
[x] I've hit on a girl in public
[ ] I've gotten wood in class
[ ] I've asked a hot girl for her number that I just met
[x] Ive acted like a man ........
[ ] Angelina Jolie is hot
[x] Pamela Anderson is hotter
[ ] Sports over-rule everything else
[x] I like rock music
[x] I like rap music
[ ] Ive been expelled
[x] Ive gotten detention
[x] Cheerleaders are hot-->oh yea!!!
[ ] I have a tattoo--->soon
[ ] Ive gotten road head
[ ] I smoke entirely too much
[x] Im a virgin
[x] I respect what you have to say
[x] And yes I care how your day went =)
[x] Its not the external looks that matter its how you feel about yourself-->fuck hah

2006-10-07T14:53:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!
PROMOS OVER!!!!!!!
NO MORE STUDYIN!!!!!
Well for now at least..provided i get promoted la....sibeh sian....
Anyway im back to bloggin ppl!! juz got over the fuked study stress shit...although m still havin other stuf tats killing e inside...tearing my heart out and eating slowly. I promise yall im dyig a very slow and painfull death. Thats a fact. Well i dun care anymore. I cant be bothereed. Coz i noe life isnt aas easy as it sounds. ppl dun get wad they want, wad can they do??? kill themselves?? fuck killin....as if tats gonna help..shit.....tat will only make things worst for the ppl close to u.....Summin up all the points,,, seems theres nothin else any1 can do. Haizz...
ATTENTION!!!( If theres anyone out there who can me, then plzzz come forward. U might juz be wad i need right now.) Most of u peeps now tat i love metallica.. well read these pyrics carefully..its just two lines.. but not many people understand...

"Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel,
Is just a freight train coming your way"

juz try summin up wad thee means...well at least it explains my current situation in life alot...that i can confirm..."Nothin else matters". Damm roght nothin else matters..My heads gona explode soon. Very soon infact..not really the type hu wans to be pushy anymr... Fuck the world and its game man...Fuck it....juz godammit fuck it......

2006-08-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

haizz......

Most of yall know tht i'd like to write what i feel in me. Wether its good or bad. Anyway ive got a little story to tell you all....so listen closely. its not a sad or happy story. but its a meaningful, and i bet its relates to some of, maybe at least once in your life. well it did for me....

There was once this little duck called DOPE. This duck was a very friendly duck. HE was one of the most talkative ducks anyone has ever known. HE knew everyone in the village and he was loved by all because of his kindness and care for everyone. Like every other teenage duck, DOPE had its own clique whom he hangs around around with everyday of his life.Suddenly on a dark stormy night, he and his friends got stuck under a tree while trying take cover from the rain. As those poor ducks had no education, they did not know it was dangerous to stand under trees during storms. Suddenly, out of a flash, lightning happened to strike down on those poor little ducks. Immediately everyone fell on the ground, not knowing if they were still alive or dead. They all passed out then and there.

In the morining, DOPE woke up i the hospital bed with aches all over his body. He slowly opened his eyes as the light passed through with a sharp blinding pain. Afetr he fully awoke, he found out that out of all his 6 friends, only two survived. He immeadiately started shedding tears of sorrow. Afetr a few days, the only friend who survived with him had stopped talking to him completely. He was very puzzled and very sad as he didnt know what wrong he had done. Even ducks who were friends with his only surviving friend didnt tell him anything. And thus, a once friendly and enthusiastic duck was now all alone without any friends left. Until this day he does not know what had happened and still wonders about it everyday.

This story tells alot,even though most of you peeps would be wondering about what the hell im talking about. Well at least some of you would sure. Im sure. And i know im not talking rubbish cause some of you i know have went through the same thing. Well open the doors, cause guess what, im joining the party.

2006-07-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

IM NOT STUDYING PROPERLY!!!!!!

i find myself still struggling, trying to study and not get distracted by anything. BUT its just not WORKING!!!!!!!!..somebody ssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaavvvvvvveeeeeeeeeee mmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!wad to do wad to do wad to do wad to do wad to do wad to do!!!!

Dunno ah sial....and im cant afford to fuck it anymore...right now, goin J2 is my only cuase..i cant afford to stay back..if i do, then can someone please tell me why the FUCK did i consider gettin into a JC...i dun think its to stay back the 1st year....there are very powerful forces at work here....and by powerful forces i mean the teachers who are gonna judge my fate for next year...shit...im screwed....up, down, left, right, center.....sianzzzzz.................

2006-07-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

ROCK ON HOMMIEZZ!!!

OH YEA!!! the concert rocked the fuck outta everyones ballzzz!!!! Dun beleive me?? ask the china boy in class A8 about how he made evry muthafucker down in the mosh pit mosh their asses the fuck out wen he played the fuckin fast solo from master of puppets...even though our band was not the best band there..we still played good enough to make ppl go crazy..that was enough for us....i personally feel the best band there was my juniors band where they played iron maiden"fear of the dark" and some other megadeath song.... wos...the rock concert really rockedd..... some unwanted stuff did happen though..u see the gig took place in my school hall, so the barricades, seeing how budget st. pats is, was juz canteen tables.. one guy actually thought ppl was so high that he thought ppl wud actually catch him if he jumped from the table....well he did.... fell on his back n cudnt move.. so ambulance was caled....anyway tat was the bad part.... but st.pats showed a very gd part of its face...it was abt RONIN, for all those hu don't noe..ronin is actually a professioal band in singapore..u noe the ones whr they hav a signed contract n all...
this was the best part.the agreement of the concert was tat no vulgarities wud b used wadsoever...hoever,, being stupid enough ronin juz had to spew out vulgariies...so they were asked to leave.. see the irony of this is tat ronin was a specal guest band st. pats had called for this concert..they recommended thei presence....the thing is, they got chased of by the same ppl hu invited them...how loser is tat man..i bet the crazy fella with the white hair n makeup died in embarrasement..well tats all tat happened during the concert..oh yea..did i mention we rocked!!! haha......

2006-07-16T13:54:00.000+08:00

One.....

Nowadays, i've been sliding into mood so intricate i don't understand it myself. I don't feel my old self anymore. It's as if i have matured over a cold, lonely night. One way i fugured this out was through my usual habits. I have stopped drinking alcohol as much, and i have begun to write alot about myself, which would seem to have no meaning, but in fact it does. I even started thinking about life recently. But one thing still remains exactly how it used to be. And thats my swearing. I find i feel much better when i use fucking words while im conversing, and besides its been part of my vocabulary like since primary 3. So i don't blame myself cause i don't really think that there is any harm in saying those words as long as it dosen't scar anyone for life. Now then it would cause much damage to the person who swears and the person who gets affected by the swearing.

I feel that i've become much wiser, but i don't like it. I still do prefer my old st. pats ways. I wish i would finally realise why i've translated into a translucent beam of light where nothing else matters except for the ones you love of care about deeply. So this is song thta i feel like i relate to at this point of time in my life. Its called Fade to Black by Metallica...

METALLICA-FADE TO BLACK

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

2006-07-13T12:43:00.000+08:00

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Im in school right now...having lunch break. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm having this fucked up feeling in my fucked up head. I don't even know what the hell im doing here right now... I mean Clarissa just asked me where i am, instead of going to her i'm sitting here writing this shit even though i don't know why the hell i'm doing it. This is seriously fucked up. I'm feeling somethin that i never ever felt before in my whole life, what the fuck is it??
Its like a mixture of sadness, happiness, embarrasement and just shear agony.Why....

2006-07-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

ok before i start writing about anythin, i wanna say a very big.........
THANK YOU!!!
to all my friends who have made this 17th birthday of mine a great one. i mean i've had really shiok shiok birthdays, but i feel this by far the best and most special birthday i have ever had in my life. All of yall have made it very special for me and i can tell yall i never felt this way in my life. Fides and Jacq, i love the squirrel. I feel that it really expresses me alot...^^....Aileen, Clarissa and Heidi, the bracelet was great, i loved it. I mean i always wanted something with my name(or at least my nick) inscribed in it. And what a better way to get it then as a present from friends. And Zarifah, thanks alot for your present even though i don't know what it is yet, im sure ill love it, don't worry. And thx to all my band bros for rememberin, it means alot la....
Love yall....

2006-07-09T14:47:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm

Sorry la zarifah...lazy..yesterday i was writing it half-way, but i was too lazy to continue. ok so what was i was writing about, lets see....oh ya, i was saying i just started math tuiion last week tuesday. And guess what, it was Aileen's hot hot teacher,even clarissa says it to...i was suppose to turn gay the moment i lay eyes on him. Well what do you think??!?!??! they are like totally in love with him la..lke they can't live without him. But he dosent affect me so lets just change the fuckin subject before i start to kill myslef. I found out that my class did fucking badly for the common tests, what a surprise!! i mean who would ever suspect a class which comes late for school and lessons, does nohthing in class, cant be bothered about punishments to do so badly??
its really very surprising......ok enough with the fucking sarcasm....everyone knows my class just plain and purely sucks. But in actual fact,,it rulezz....so fuck you muthafuckers who say my class sux..

ok so next thing is that on thursday my makeshift band had our 2nd practice for the upcoming concert in st pats. we were actually quite surprised that we could play the songs, we never acually thought we could pull it off. Now we have a certain level of confidence. So that's good. Anyway im suppose to do a very catchy tune for my bass solo in the start of the song, so im thinking CALL OF THE MOUNTAIN KING for those of you who knows this song. And besides its in the same key the song were playing right after the solo, so ya....its all adds up well. Hopefully the concert will be a great success for us. And i don;t have to worry about the amp not working again(for those of you who know what im talking about) cause there's a rumour that its gonna be wireless, so cool...

ok that's all i had to say, well..tomorrow im gonna celebrate 17 years of living a fucking miserable life. WOOPDIDOO!!!! Happy Birthday to me!!... all im looking forward to tomorrow is the amount of money im gonna get so that i can waste on shit that i don't really need. Most probably you'll be thinking what kind of muthafucker i am..well good...coz that's what i am...

2006-07-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

COUGH*

i think im sick. i like wokeup at 8 to go mass, slept during it,went back home,slept until like about 1+..then i ate lunch n went online for awhile,den i went staright back to sleep around 3+. Guess what, i woke up around 7.15 and then i went online again la...well not really sleepy anymore...come to think of it, i don't think im sick..haha..wth..contradictory statements from me, how typical....Anyway i 've like been practicing my guitar for the concert so bloody hard, even though i can play it already, i still have to figure out a bass solo for my intro..its super exciting, at the same time nerve wrecking. I mean its not as if i never played a solo on an instrument with the light shining on me in front of thousands of people before, but its the first time i'm doin it on a bass guitar...and its all freestyling on the spot, so ya, i fucked up right now. but what's gotta be done has to be done. So ill just do what i can,hopefully i don't screw it up. I would like be demoralised for the song. But actually what is a song?? Issit just an intricate network of sounds put together to simply create a illusion of sounds which soothe the human hear? Well whatever it is, i just lovee it. As most of the people who know well, i'm like crazy about music and my life is basically about music. I guess i was just born a music lover.

2006-06-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

SEOUL GARDEN...

Today was fun, i went to seoul garden with some of my frends from school, namely aileen, clarissa,dinesh,heidi,zarifah..suhui was suppose to come, appparently she had some dental appoinement...but nvrmin..our main aim was to celebrate e end of common test. Yes it was a big thing for us coz we know we did damm terribly for these tests. I also had to do a damm wierd thing for this little outing of ours, i had to wear my shool uni even though i didnt have any school today..y??...coz no1 else i went out with were wearing casual clothes, so if i were to wear casual, people would have thought i was from poly or something...i woudnt want that now would I.Anyway that's not the point, the thing is we finished it.....oh ya, something super funny happened today...and guess who did it..AILEEN!! it first started when the gals went to take desert, they all came back ice kachang.
Aileen then started eating her "red beans". But then she realised(only when we told her) that they were actually kidney beans...she didnt even know there such things la..wth..hahaha...after getting that straightened out, some of them were thinking of watchin a movie..but the only movies available were superman returns and scray movie 4..so we were like ok lets go..but soon after dinesh said he cudnt go, den zarifah cudnt go too,den i realised i cudnt go for it too..THEN heidi too realised she had to bring her dog out for a walk..??..dun ask..i didnt...so we decided not to go after all...

Soon after dinesh, heidi and zarifah...leaving only me clarissa and aileen..so we went around for awhie and clarrissa bought a hairband, typical. Well after that went went home..although aileen was damm worried she would get lost coz she didnt know how to get to the bus stop in front of the community library, but in the ned zarifah told...so she was safe...so clarissa and i took 31 and i was givin her a small tour of the route ive been takin for 4 years of my life everyday....we reached home around 5.45 to 6...then i dunno what happened to e rest, but i took a bath, practiced my guitar, called people-->to borrow a bass, den i went online and started to write this..so here i am now writing this shit as the seconds tick from the clock to the 1st quarter final match for the world cup, Germany vs Argentina....GO GERMANY!!!!

2006-06-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

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2006-06-29T11:50:00.000+08:00

PHEW.........

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!! Finally the exams are over for me,,unlike for some of my dear dear friends...dun worry i will pray for u guys..hahhahaha...phew..one long week of nothing but talking, shitting, begging, and studying...oh ya dun forget sleeping.Coz without sleep there's no studyin.yes...anyway i dun think i will really pass these exams well..coz by the look of how im studyin, i can say i might as well not go to school. Yup. yall guesed it right...thats coz im not studyin..TADAHH!!!!....wooopdidooo!! wadya know..the same old typical me from st. pat's. What can i say, im a patrician.Well, out of all the exams..including tamil(mind you) would say that todays exam was the worst...i dunno if its coz i didnt study for it or coz its MATHS!!...at leasst i know i wun get a zero..maybe at least 5 and above...oh did i leave out the fact that its over 50!!
you can see where im gettin at.

Anyway now that the nightmare is over, ive got more important things to do like thinking what am i gonna eat next...wait ill put this on hold i go eat first...damm fucking hngry sia..dunno y..

.....

k backz....as i was saying..ive got better things to do now..k this annoucements for all yall homies out there...ST. PATRICK'S SCHOOL IS HAVING A CONCERT ON JULY 22ND..6 TO 9 I THINK...IM INVITING EVERYONE I KNOW..BUT MUST BUY TICKET..SORRY I CANT PAY FOR YOU, COZ IM FUCKING BROKE..ANYWAY MORE DETAILS SOON...OH YA..THE MOST IMPORTANT THING OF THIS CONCERT IS...IM PLAYING!!!!..YEA..SO PLZ SHOW YOUR SUPPORT..DANKZZZ....

k now thats over..back to what im writing...tomoro im like goin out toseoul garden with some of my friends to celebrate the end of common test...ots gonna be fun la..and we're also treating one special birthday girl la...even though her birthday is like next week..we found this perfect timing la..coz alot of us cannot make it next week la...and ya yall guessed it...the birthday girl is ZARIFAH!!!!!..dun worry ill tell u happy birthday next week...so thats about all thats happening now la...and hopefully i dun screw up the solo im gonna play for e concert...*crossing fingers*

2006-06-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

NOT WHAT YOU THINK....

Some of yall would probably be thinking that coz of my tests and all..would be the reson of why i didnt post something for such a long time...hahahaha..don't get your hopes up...im not....In fact i should be studying right now instead of writin all this shit...but i couldn't be bothered..............

Well lets see what has influenced my fucking miserable life for the past few days, ok i've been chewed on, spit on, stepped on, kicked on and beat up.........nah....i've actually been slackin my ass off, as if i never slacked in my life before....ok on thurs my pw group went to the Environment Building of the National Environmental Agency to interview some lady on recycling...ya...how boring is that....den we went to far east to do our survey shit..u noe the one where we ask ppl to do the survey for us.....i'm sorry , i mean beg....anyway most of the people we interviewed were all girls....dun ask me..its far east plaza.....ok so we wasted time over there for about 3 hours den we all went our own way....i went back home...came online...watched soccer and den slept. Boring right?

ok lets all skip the friday coz nothin happened..n lets also skip saturday coz i dun wanna talk about my exam,,although there is one thing which happened after the exam....some of us went to hougang mall after the exam..and i found out something cool about one of my particular friend...well...'anonymous' didn't know what a pelican was...it was regarded as a 'big duck' by 'anonymous'....i mean wth..i laughed until i cried my eyeballs out...and today, 'anonymous' was talking to me and said that 'anonymous' went to check out the net for infos on pelicans....and the thing is..'anonymous still didnt knoe how to pronounciate the word properly and kept on saying 'pegligan'...ok at this point i was practically tearing my intestines out...i cudnt take it...i mean wth??.....

ok today...nothing really happened...i was trying to study history the whole day..but managed to do so only until like 4+...den i came to write this...haha thats all about my boring life so far.....toodlez..

2006-06-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

HAIR!!!

Today i went to cut my hair....ya woopdidooo!!!..ok anyway i was suppose to go to my usual hairdresser,,but guess wad....it juz happened to be that their renovating. So i had to settle for some unknown barber..i entered this shop..this fella looked like a bloody fuckin pondan,,,,so i told myself im save, coz i noticed that if a guy cuts ur hair, he has to be pondan or else he sucks....In the end i was right. My hair was fine...

Anyway, apart from my wonderful hair..i took a maths test today online which i actually didnt know about until 6 hours ago. One of my fren told me..so what the hell, we tried doin it together....in the end i ound out that the whole thing was on functions..and i didnt know nutz at it...so we just tried doing shit..after the whole time of (anyhow doing),,,,i got 6 out of 10!!! shocking right!! I think my teacher would be damm proud of me of studying...but lets just keep it a secret....anyway AILEEN..on the other hand got 2 out of 10!!!!! how lame is that la.....we did it together and she failed and i passed...haha..anyway i laughed my ass out...ok la.. thats all i gotta write...byezz....

2006-06-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTT!!!!!!!!!!

guess wad!!!!i studied!!!!!!!!!!!! yea i wan the whole world to know this.......coz its a dammm rare thing...coming from me especially.....so ya its shockin.Watcha you gonna do about it??
Actually to tll yall the truth, this wasnt from my own effort.Aileen gave me a freakinbig scare today la..by asking me how many american presidents there were. I was like totally engrossed in finding that out after that la.She then called me later and told me everything....i finally found some peace after that..THANKZZZZ!!!!!!!but that wasnt enough..no...i had to know more....(sounds so drama but its real!!) I then went to...u guessed it..STUDY!!!.....welll then i went to sleep afetr abput 2 hours..nevertheless i studied...yea.....

ok another thing which happened today...my mom made this super shiok thing with coconut milk and durian flesh........woahhhh it was so rich n shiok la...being an idiot for durian, obviously i would love this..This was a damm good day for me. I dunno y, but it was good la...

2006-06-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

A SMALL NOTICE ABOUT ME..

1.who's the last person in ur inbox?= aiai
2. sport you did last?= soccer...we lost...figures...
3. last movie you watched?= x-men 3...wtf...cyclops didnt last 5 mins...
4. what do people first notice when they meetyou?= oohhhh babay.......
5. do you like peanut-butter?= DOUGH!!!!! i mean who dosent???
6. do you read comics?= helloooo..major anime fan here....!!!
7. how pretty/handsome is your crush?=hmmmm..kinda hard to say...ive got so many....
8. do you like earthquakes?= ya...but nvr felt a full blown one before....lolz...
9. worst nightmare?= BUGZZZZ!!!!!!!
10. favorite coffee place?= STARBUCKS...tao payoh motherfuckers took away my starbucks and put BK instead..fuck them....
11. wanna be happy?= depends.....
12. your current school close friends?= im likable all around...im juz charming...
13. most people would describe me as:= hot,cute,sexy,charming,handsome..shit..too many to describe.....
14. one thing you hate about yourself?= i cud i hate myself if im this good?!?
15. vegetable/s you hate?= beet root..tow kay...peas...
16. do you like to go out on a shopping trip?= depends...with who n buy wad?
17. favorite persons in the world?= beyonce...jessica alba..alyssa milano...ohhh god..dun get me started....
18. can you act?=not for a real play...but i can lie or act in front of teacher damm well...
19. favourite past time?= playing my guitar n listening to music..and toking to frens...
20. Are you happy?= maybe...but as u all noe..life sux...
21. favorite song now?= right now...its I Stand Alone....by GODSMACK....
22. what time is it now?= 6 mins before Japan vs Korea....
23. first thing you do when you wake up?= say: what the fuck..so early??
24. where are you right now?= in front of my com la..obviously...fucking stupid...
25. what are the things you like to do now?= FUCK!!!!
26. are you ok now?= no..isnt it obvious....ive always been a screw lose...
27. how many drinks before you get reallydrunk?=9...ive counted.....many times.....
28. which of the foreign actors do you like rightnow?= refer to Q.17....ohhhh yea...
29. what is love to you?= caring..concern....trust....commitment..believe or not..im very serious about this subject....past experiences.....
30. are u missing someone?= yup...for the past 2 years.....

2006-06-17T14:07:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!??!?!?!?

o..befor i start writing about what shit i saw yesterday,, i wanna make this clear to all muthafuckers out there about my previous post....i did not REPEAT:DID NOT get offended by anyones postting about me...i seriously dun care.....actually im fine with it..BUT plz do not think i got offende by your post...coz i did not...i actully enjoy reading about myself...dun ask.....k now that i got that cleared,,lemme voice out wad stupid thing i saw yesterday that shocked me...k maybe most of u hardcore ppl out there might know about this, but i didnt ...so dun blame me..

here's how it goes...i was watching a anime show on some japanese website..it was kinda hard seeing the fact that it was all in japanese..then after the show they featured and advertisement about some porn movie...im not really shocked abut this coz this is a normal thing in japan. But the thing is the porn show was the shockin part..It was about this schoolgirl who entered an mrt train. She then suddenly started to strip right in front of everybody..n this was done by a SCHOOLGIRL... ok at this poin of time im like WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?...wait it gets worst...This guy then comes up to her then he starts to strip to...and guess wad,,they start fucking each other on the floor then and there...IN FRONT OF EVERYONE.....i mean WTF?!??ok at first i thought tis was all staged,,den i realised in the background there was a mother who was covering er son's eyes....im like sitting here watchi this...wads even worst than all this is that the ppl in the mrt were sitting there as if this was an normal everyday thing.....i mean seriously.....if this were to happen in singapore, the 2 ppl who did this would confirm be punish damm severely in court......i juz had to tell this somewhere...wad better place to do than here....

2006-06-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm........

ok...theres something going on here that im realy not aware of... and I just suddenly realised this...shit..every blog i read,,my name is in it..whether its good or bad(well most of the time bad..) wtf....after a little reading of all the blogs today....i just realised....im the only one who dosent post anyone's name up...this is fucked up...what am i supposed to do..am i like suppose to start writing my frens names in my blog...so other motherfuckers whom i nvr fucked in my life could read and start to get to know them a lil better???? This shit stinks....i feel like crap..like im the only one who does... anyway i think i shud start writing with name...hmmmm......i dunno...nvr really had the habit or writing abt people so openly.i just guess its the typical old me....wad can i say, i was raised like that..and dun think this is a personal attack to all those motherfuckers out there who write names in their entries.....this is the kinda shit i think about when im not doing anythin....see wad kind of life i go through everyday...im a sad case....ok anyway this is e video of our jammin of the four horsemen.....now ull probably be thinkin why im talking about this so much as if its a big record single or something......the fact is that this is a fuckin hard song to play and i never thought my group would actually be able to play it....so its kinda shockin to see us play like this...