Thursday, December 28, 2006
Internet....Stupid earthquake...damaged some stupid cable and the stupid Internet became so stupidly slow that it amounted to no stupid connection at all.. Its all STEUUPIIPIIITTT......But who cares...not me...lol. Wait, then why am i saying this??!. Haizz...self-contradiction. Nothing more classic then that. Couldn't really come online partially cause of the tupeeed damaged cable thang, and partially cause of rehearsals. Bloody assoles act as if i cant play shit for the bloody songs. But I'm the only one who's actually getting it right. Why am i not afraid of saying this out loud without caring of people calling me an egotistical son of a bitch. Well, everytime there is a pause in the practice to correct something, it is NEVER because of me. So this is why i dare say this.
Anyway fuck that shit. Have been really playing my bass like mad during these days. Found out so much of interesting stuff about people. Well wouldn't really say interesting la. I mean its kinda sad for them. But it was a hellofa experience though. Wouldn't want to enjoy it. They are juicy stories, but their from your friends. Thinking of how much your friends would have suffered is bad enough. You tend to treasure your life more this way. Feeling that you're so lucky that your life is much simple. And yet you also tend to be more careful about what kind of person your gonna be when your old enough. You never ever want to be someone nasty or someone who ends up enjoying life counting bars on the gate of their jail cell. Well i wouldn't know about that for some of you weirdos out there. But for the vast majority, that's the way it is. Anyway you begin to treasure these friends of yours. Not cause you pity them or anything, but cause you know they need nothing else but your support and love. And whats a better gift for them than showing all these. And it dosn't only make them feel better cause they know someone is always there for them, it also makes you feel much better. Cause you know that someone is appreciating your friendship. Not only for who you are, but also for what you done for them. And by that i mean, listening.
I know i don't sound like my bloody self right know. But hey, i don't give a fuck what yall hypocrital bastards think. So what if i feel this way. Is it all a crime? Everyone eventually feels something. It can happen anytime in your life. It just so happens that this is my time. So let me just go through my time peacefully, until i get back to my old fugly ways. But hopefully i don't. Don't wanna go back to that era. Terrible experience. I feel i've become more wiser... HAHAHA..feel so bloody gay saying that. Oh Shit... But nevermind la. If it means your friends are more meaningful to you. Then i don't mind anymore....
got fucked at.. 5:33 PM
