Friday, December 29, 2006
Survey......1. I've come to realize that my ex....
is kind of wierd
2. I am listening to...
Bittersweet Symphony- The Verve
3. I talk...
to people who like talking to me...
4. I love...
everyone of my dearest friends..
5. My best friends....
are around me all the time when i need them
7. I lost...
someone dear to me not quite long ago
8. I hate it when people...
don't keep their word...
9. Love Is...
Hard.....
10. Marriage is...-
even harder....
11. Somewhere, someone is...
waiting for me to do something....
12. I'll always be...
waiting for that person too....
13. I have a crush on...
someone who will never notice it...
14. The last time I cried was
a very very long time ago, most probably sec 2.....
15. My cell phone is...
still working...
16. When I wake up in the morning...
I try not to think about anything.....
17. Before I go to sleep at night...
eat myself inside....
18. Right now I am thinking about...
doing this survey....
19. Babies are...
very cute especially when they are very fat...
20. I get on friendster...
to get this kind of stuff.....
21. Today I....
spoke to some of my best friends...
22. Tonight I will...
Hope.....
23. Tomorrow I will...
try to enjoy myself....
24. I really want...
something i won't be able to get...
25. The person who most likely torepost this is...
honestly, Don't give a shit....
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Internet....Stupid earthquake...damaged some stupid cable and the stupid Internet became so stupidly slow that it amounted to no stupid connection at all.. Its all STEUUPIIPIIITTT......But who cares...not me...lol. Wait, then why am i saying this??!. Haizz...self-contradiction. Nothing more classic then that. Couldn't really come online partially cause of the tupeeed damaged cable thang, and partially cause of rehearsals. Bloody assoles act as if i cant play shit for the bloody songs. But I'm the only one who's actually getting it right. Why am i not afraid of saying this out loud without caring of people calling me an egotistical son of a bitch. Well, everytime there is a pause in the practice to correct something, it is NEVER because of me. So this is why i dare say this.
Anyway fuck that shit. Have been really playing my bass like mad during these days. Found out so much of interesting stuff about people. Well wouldn't really say interesting la. I mean its kinda sad for them. But it was a hellofa experience though. Wouldn't want to enjoy it. They are juicy stories, but their from your friends. Thinking of how much your friends would have suffered is bad enough. You tend to treasure your life more this way. Feeling that you're so lucky that your life is much simple. And yet you also tend to be more careful about what kind of person your gonna be when your old enough. You never ever want to be someone nasty or someone who ends up enjoying life counting bars on the gate of their jail cell. Well i wouldn't know about that for some of you weirdos out there. But for the vast majority, that's the way it is. Anyway you begin to treasure these friends of yours. Not cause you pity them or anything, but cause you know they need nothing else but your support and love. And whats a better gift for them than showing all these. And it dosn't only make them feel better cause they know someone is always there for them, it also makes you feel much better. Cause you know that someone is appreciating your friendship. Not only for who you are, but also for what you done for them. And by that i mean, listening.
I know i don't sound like my bloody self right know. But hey, i don't give a fuck what yall hypocrital bastards think. So what if i feel this way. Is it all a crime? Everyone eventually feels something. It can happen anytime in your life. It just so happens that this is my time. So let me just go through my time peacefully, until i get back to my old fugly ways. But hopefully i don't. Don't wanna go back to that era. Terrible experience. I feel i've become more wiser... HAHAHA..feel so bloody gay saying that. Oh Shit... But nevermind la. If it means your friends are more meaningful to you. Then i don't mind anymore....
Saturday, December 23, 2006
MMM CHRISTMAS??Well christmas is coming. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! Holidays just don't seem like they use to anymore. People would be thinking, hooray its the holidays, we're all free from work. Ya right..... MY ASS is more free then i am. But what to do, just have to live with it la. IT IS the holidays anyway. Anyway besides that, might not be able to come online for awhile from tomorrow onwards. So I would like to take this post and dedicate to all my friends.
I would like wish all of yall a VERYREYERYREYREYEYERYERYEEYREREY MERRYRERERYRYRYRYEYYERYERYEEEREYRERYYRYRRRYYYY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
O yea....I almost forgot, and also a very HAPPY NEWWWWEWEWEWWEWE YEAREAEAEREARAERERAEARERR...........
Sorry, abit sian now.... quite bored also. Anyway will be going for dinner later at corpthorne hotel. If that's how its spelt la...Never really heard of that hotel until like last month. Figured..How typical of me.... But nevertheless, still gonna enjoy today. Wearing a new long sleeve i bought. Really like the colour though. Thats why i bought it, lol. But anyway i gotta now... So see yall asswides in school....
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
UHMMHMM...Never a day,
Without thoughts,
Deep feelings,
Every moonless night,
Through the sounds of the grass slumber,
Dreams arouse,
Subliminal minds alike,
Finding salvation from dim red roses,
Running through fields of beauty,
Your glimpse through every blink,
Finally,
Peace at last,
Back to where i lay rest,
Vanished worries,
Just you,
Beside my paradise...
Saturday, December 16, 2006
R.I.PWhat is life? When did it all start? How did it start? How will it end? When will it end? What's gonna happen when it does end?
So many questions...so many people in this world...so many prodigies for that matter, and no one has an answer? Ha....Of cause not. Who could ever answer these questions. Yes sure, the world was born as a piece of rock from the sun. Evolved and became what it is today. But where did the sun come from? If its from another planet, where did that planet come from?
These are some questions that people have been asking for years, but have never given an accurate answer. Why? Well, they can't. Its not their fault. If nobody's suppose to know the answer, nobody will know. Fate can't be changed. People try changing the appearances of their baby's before their even actually born. But with that comes a risk of autism or retardation. If that happens, can the parents prevent that?
So why am I askin so many questions like this? Why am i even talking about these crap? Honestly, i don't give two hoots about the questions i asked. But somethin happened to me today which made me realized no matter how much you don't give a shit about the world. You can't do the same for the people you care about. Because they will need you and you will need. If not now, someday. And when you lose that person, you will grief. Realizing that you have done ennough for him or her.
Benny, you will be missed dude.It isn't fair you went so soon, but then again, nothing comes fairly in this world. See you in the next life man. Rest In Peace bro.....
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Back!!Finally, after long time... internet's back online. Feeling so bloody bored without anything to do. Now i can be bored with my internet!! Anyway this time was actually quite useful for me... used it as a period of isolation. Quite peaceful. It would have been better if only i was only all by myself near beach. But noooooooooooooo!!! That won't happen. At least not now..^^
Dammit!! Never do any homework or study yet!!! I'm gonna die la.. And right now i don't have much time and all. Spring cleaning and all... Yes people, I do chores...But i don't think all these days went to waste though. Learned quite alot..of people that is. Took this time to observe. Learned some very interesting stuff about some people. Although no names will be mentioned, i can just say i know this people quite well. Who knows, might even be someone who's reading this right now!! Ok i'm drifting to a lame area right now... Then again i always do. But anyway it was quite fulfilling for the soul la. Sounds super emo and all, i know. But i like it. So live with it you bastards...
Besides all that crap, feeling quite scared about next year. Bloody hell hate all those stupid feelings.... Common test coming soon...Haizz..... Furthermore feelings never leave easy. Especially when they came about by growing internally. Not easy at all. Almost everyday. Hey wait, it is everyday... But what to do. Life's tough. Gotta know how to survive if you wanna live. But right now, i juz live on a few words. Don't give a fuck about the world, the world woudn't give a fuck about you and everyone will be happy. No repercussions. Sounds dumb, but hey!! Waddya know, it works..... So much is not true about that sentence, but that's all i can rely upon to keep surviving... Well at least for now. Hopefully someday, everything would change.
Till that day, i will just fuck the world and all its motherfucking shit. Waiting...hmmm...haha...sounds familiar. Nothing new..haizz....